A New Experiment

I have an idea one that you may not see in connection to this blog if I did it right. Something where I hope it will get me more to the efforts of trying new things and in doing so show people success can be had. There has been progress on goals and for that I am grateful. It just is not enough.

What do you do when things are not working, well you go to do something else and see if it is better. Cannot say it will be, but for what I hope it will be enough for me to get some supplies together because one thing that had to be pounded in my head is one cannot give if one does not have and that means this year has to be my best one yet, granted college has been good for me but it cannot last.

For this project thought it is integral I do not speak of it again until it is done. For the progress on that I am looking for there needs to be something to be removed and this experiment. I hope at the end it will be something that we can look toward as something that could possibly shed light on a question because over my writing I hemmed and hawed for so long that soon some of them would go to grade school if they had been children.

The experiment will be based on this, because what if someone who is wanting to do something has no name? My guess, is that there will be an openness that come with it and to do so while there will most likely be some imitators on the case that there is any level of success and there hopefully will be, it just is something that sometimes I do not feel proud of the progress I have done or the thing I have and it just is held for some reason so hopefully this experiment takes care of that.

What the other thing is well, I have been very angry and while trying to make it positive there is a point of rage for me that is not hot, it is cold, it is ice cold and it is not something fun for others to be around. I do need to use it though so maybe this is the way to make sure things can stay separate until maybe some of it is used up. This year was rough and I have been dealing with more then what I can handle and talking to therapists had been something that has been rather fruitless.

Even though the experiment will have some releases there should be some this next year, we shall see.

Stay strong and happy new year

Question for those who stayed, what are some things you are afraid of in your projects and some things you would like to get to?

Classes and AI art

My semester is Accounting, Pre Calculus, and Macroeconomics. If I fall off the map for a time, that is why. I want to bring up something here because I have been fiddling around with AI art, and it is currently a hot topic in art.

There is a lot to be said, and I have a couple of books to explain this, more art than writing. But, still, it is something that will, I think, in the later pieces get more explanation because we have a ship of Theseus style thought exercise.

For those who do not know, here is the wiki page explanation.

“The Ship of Theseus is a thought experiment about whether an object that has had all of its original components replaced remains the same object. According to legend, Theseus, the mythical Greek founder-king of Athens, had rescued the children of Athens from King Minos after slaying the minotaur and then escaped on a ship to Delos. Every year, the Athenians commemorated this legend by taking the ship on a pilgrimage to Delos to honor Apollo. The question was raised by ancient philosophers: After several centuries of maintenance, if every part of the ship of Theseus had been replaced, one at a time, was it still the same ship? “

So now we ask, is a piece of art done with an artist’s style according to someone or something, with prompts replaced from original works to whatever is put in, with variables changing still a piece from the artist?

For those that go and get my book, you will find it is very abstract, which is where I think it shines. No rules, just all the pieces in a blender and whipped to whatever is created. Moving forward, I believe that is how I will do it. However, we still have some problems because those stylings are based on artists. While there is no copyright infringement on a style, it is very disrespectful, so where do we draw the line? 

Moving forward, I will have to research and see which artists’ styles are available and write myself a no-go list. One book is already done, so I cannot do much, and really the only reason it has not been released yet is that the formatting did not come out the way I wished. As it stands, I have one book of fifty pieces, all abstract, but some are cool, and after formatting, I will leave it as just a fancy picture book letting the points show up more in the next book. 

It would be nice to get something up. Goodness knows my book stack to finish is large enough already. 

Here is the cover. 

Stay Strong.

Oxymoronic Oregon

You know how last week I said I was not going to get political? Ya, I am going to be somewhat here here and not against Roe V Wade but on something on a much smaller level that is infinitely infuriating. Roe V Wade has been something of a painful remainder that sometimes people will see whatever they want to see hoped up on zealotry for their own side, and I would rather be drunk then deal with that again.

So I found out something. We have an independent party in Oregon. Sounds weird right, like jumbo shrimp or easy loans, it is a set of word that could be something and makes about as much sense as a cup holder on the roof of your car. Why is this of all things something that makes me want to take the speed run from helpful citizen to classic super villain? In most other political conversation Independent often mean unaffiliated of either the two major parties or of parties on the whole depending on the particular conversation. Well, Oregon’s independent party, is a major party and that means it gets billing with Republicans and Democrats. They claim 136,000 members are part of their party and I am throwing the bullshit flag here because I polled everyone I could within my voice, so most of the zip code. Very few understood it was a party and especially a major party, most people thought, like me, it was unaffiliated.

When one is part of a party they first need to go through a voting in party for each position, and since I did not understand we had the oxymoron tribe claim a spot I did not check if I needed to join. The other part that makes me want to spit is that the majority of the party caucus either votes behind a cross nominated Democrat or Republican. It has already been challenged and despite only half of the people could understand from the parties own research that yes it was a party the judge agreed. Caucus is already done and decisions are made because a rather gutless bit of wordplay and that is exactly the kind of person you get with a career politician.

I learned, changed to unaffiliated and hopefully will be in position by next year to try for something. Losses will happen and sometimes it is more of a learning experience then it is a serious attempt to run for a position, but now I want everyone to do it. Knock them all out, if people look at that sort of thing and with everything else going on see that people are able to make a living on such things then you have the right to take it from them and make yourself better then they ever could. You, the person can get into politics if you do not know how, hell it may be something I write about from this point because that sort of me just does not sit well with me.

If I can fail then let me fail on my effort that sort of thing seems like a gotcha trap if you expect things to make any sort of sense but that is okay. We learn, and out there is the future leaders that the current leaders are afraid of because of the greatness that can be ushered in unaffiliated, Independent, Democrat or Republican. These times will test people and they will continue but money cant be taken into the grave and everyone meets with the reaper eventually. Do not kill or maim, do not commit crime to hurry those affairs, but find yourself ready because in the hard times like the ones that some of us are already having, the ones coming for more of us, those where legends are forged.

Be A Legend.

Tinker Tailor Soldier Sailor

Tiring, school is very tiring, but we had some work done, so let us go over the basics. I have found some places I can sell artwork. I think Redbubble will be my choice for right now as I have not heard too much negative from my friends using them, so that is coming soon. We have a lot of different artwork and even a couple of designs. I have one for a couple of designs I came up with when I was dabbling, and with the art and some other things, it could be a time to push that a little further. It will be fun to say I have merch and whatnot.
One other thing I wanted to get done is to fix up a Milwordy document readable in both excel and open office that can keep track of your word count if you try Milwordy or are just wanting something to keep you honest over a time frame. Due to how much time it took to get all the graphs ready on the last page breaking down by every three-month block what heavy edits, light edits writing and how everything stacks up. I will have it on Gumroad for a price of one dollar. It took me a fair amount of time. It includes something for excel, open office, and a read me, so anyone who wants to try Milwordy can give it a round. So products are going well. A few more of those are being sold, and been looking through the logistics for something akin to a U.S made version of Alibaba, something where it can be mass made in country, and yet that sort of thing does not exist; I have found.
I would like to get three things done, but looking at prices and some health risks on the third thing, the first two may be what I can do this year, and that is to upgrade both my desk and my computer because right now I am currently working on my laptop that has had some issues but has been like a good dog, faithful and doing its best for all it needs to do. Been a lot of work, and now we just need to keep rolling on everything else that is done. For all the problems there have been going on, I feel that a lot can be made and really build a better future we had in mind. It may be a pipe dream, but we shall see in that case.
So if you are a writer and fancy yourself wanting to see how much you do over a period, I will try to have this up after the Gumroad account has it. It may take me a few moments until afterward, but I am working on it. I am happy to see that it may be something to make a little money for writers. It may be late at night for me and maybe for you the day it comes out, but I hope you take a look and if you want to write and keep track then.

https://gumroad.com/js/gumroad-embed.js


Trying to make things happen. Stay strong, everyone.

Trying To Do It All

Some days I feel like I am made more out of duct tape, bubblegum, and gorilla glue than whatever actually counts as a human. Over the past three months, I have had my neck pop off calcium crystals and after that had TMJ spasms that had full-on ripped things from my neck to the point where I had to cease all weightlifting exercises and stop working with my weighted vest.

Been learning how to use some AI art tools and my Instagram should show those as of late. It’s not my usual stuff but it does use my talents in another way so I cannot complain and I like working with it. Despite all the progress it sucks when I get injured and have to take more time to heal up if I could just at least get to a point where I do not have to worry about health issues and then being hurt. Pain or not things need to keep moving otherwise will be as bad as they have always been

Ai art here 

Not bad for Ai and ME

What can be done though? I do my best and try what I can all for the sake of making headway and just try to get out of my own way when I need to heal up. That is all I can do now, heal up and do other things to make sure to get my exercise and work on the projects as I need to and one of them is going to be the inside garden I need to make. It has been one of the things needing to get done but everything else has been getting pushed back. We have gotten a couple things growing though, and you know it is nice to enjoy the small bits of progress when one can. 

Progress is being made and it looks like the milwordy will be hit before the seventh month. It will be very difficult to be clear as to the halfway point but let me put it in perspective. A million words is a challenge and as of right now let me go over things that have been done. Just to put it in perspective as to what has been in that million words so far not that I have hit at 800k

41 fanfiction, including edits –https://www.fanfiction.net/~bigtanderson you can check those here 

A year of blog posts – rather loose on the meaning of creative, but even in nonfiction one has to be creative and I think if you show the writing from the start of November to now you will find a big difference.

A children’s book – https://mrtanderson.gumroad.com/l/WGdSA

2 semesters of creative writing projects, because, yes I have been going to college while I have been doing this.

2 book drafts finished

9 light edited

2 heavy edited

With several more to go.

In one year even the stupid book of insults had been something that added to the profile. I can say I will hit the goal because unless I got knocked into a coma for six months the finish line is well within range and that is good to know but we can try and push even harder and get it done before my birthday.

My birthday is May 1st. While everything is going on if I can do this in the next will be five days if I release it on time. Before that, I will not be able to do much on Sunday as that is my day with my uncle. That means I roughly have 9 days to do what I need to do with everything and to make it all possible. That would be a hard ask and probably is not going to happen but it should be able to happen before the end of May. Even to hit a million by month seven would be a sure feather in my cap I found a few more people that had done it, but I am also developing a book file to work in excel or an open office for people to chart their own writing over a year.

I have had some time to think on the point of the Indiegogo with a couple people I know who had run some successful ones and I think that will be the next project to work on behind the scenes and start getting it out there. I think we are ready to make that happen. Tweaking and working that is next on that list and the next twitch project is the music run with all that keeping classes high is going to be important because to make it on the honor roll even starting off at a community college where I am getting some progress made.

All in all, I feel I should be happy, but there is still some specter making me think not to count it until it is over the finish line. Maybe that is the kind of person I am but in any case, this month there had been a writing competition on Twitch. Yes, I am on twitch, and yes I am about as nonserious as one would expect, this is really one of my most serious points. I am rambling I just wanted to get some thoughts off with Portland being what it is right now.

Stay strong.

One and Two. What to do?

First, I have noticed you.

Believe it or not I do read at what posts are doing well and how people react and come to these things, and I see you like my rando recipes as well so when I get the issues with my new phone I will try to take some time and put a couple more on here because with the seasoning blends it is going to be done anyway and just things that are fun to make will be something where you can look. I did play around with the camera and it is something I feel I can work with. I may do a couple recipes with my seasoning blends as well but if you do not have it it will have the steps for a good meal nonetheless

As this is going out I am actually doing my first shift followed by a college class in many a year, and it did not work out last time. Last time this happened I was so drained, and this was before the nerve damage mind you, that I had passed out for three days after staying up a week straight so there are going to be problems, but we may be able to work our way through.

Second, and the meat of the matter. When things go bad, there is a lot of ear in the world, people in power seem to be in a race no matter what party they represent to the bottom of respectability, and during all this when things are bad I remember a line, one that made me do a lot of the stuff I have done. A line that has been instrumental in my own paperwork stepping in.

Why I train. Why I write. Why time after time to punch walls it seems with little improvement on a task. Why do I keep trying.

If you want something done right, you cannot blame state, country, family or circumstance. If you want something done right, you need to do it yourself. This does not mean not to take help, it means you cannot let anyone else drive to the goal because often times they will not have the investment to your goal that you do, and people will often disappoint with their decisions. It is why I have a certain line on my whiteboard. Good or bad, whatever life throws at me I have to work with it and if I can’t that is one me.

Sometimes, I have not been great at this, sometimes I have needed a hard lesson. Not saying I am good at it, I am stating I am trying though. Any who this one is going to be short, but if there are things you need to learn or keep in mind sometimes people will fail. That does not mean you are bad at it it means you are learning it and how it applies in different situations. Give yourself a break sometimes and do all you can to keep your eyes on the prize whether you are learning that through the great resignation or just through some things. The times be a changing and a lot of people are sitting on their rump so a lot of people need to get in the game, and as DJ Professor K said β€œ

β€œThe game is gonna start soon, and ya’ll gonna be making the plays.”

Things will get worse in some cases and it will be up to the individual to try and make things better and through the efforts of many individuals there is a chance.

Stay Strong and see you next time.

Turn Out From Burnout

Yes I forgot, Anywho I got over a third of the way through Milwordy so that is good progress and we got some work done for the first orders and that is great. Trying to do more social media is really a game of what I have forgotten. On top of that working my way through a writing class now and I feel this month is going to be big numbers so far because we are doing a lot already and I got some mushrooms on the smoke, that you may have seen if you followed the Instagram, and you should.

Click the shrooms to drop you to the IG page

I actually had a class on Monday , my writing class actually, and I was more nervous about making sure I had it all in order, but class came, class went, and I had a good time. A couple more fanfics on the page, just because I forgot how much fun it could be to write about other peoples worlds, it is like playing with other people’s shiny new toys and then saying to go nuts.

Here is what I want you to do, what is something you have been really pushing yourself to working on, leave it in a comment and I want to hear what you all are doing, because I know I am not the only one. Let me hear it from you about your writing, your projects, how you are working out, hell that you have stuck to an extra walk, anything you are proud I want you to put it here.

So what do you do when you feel the fatigue on a major project like Milwordy.?

You need to do more project work but are beginning to burnt out is to see how you are getting burnt out for this. I know writing itself will be the problem while editing will be more of the stuff I can do because I have enough of that to do to give myself. I split it up so when I am sick of writing I go edit and when the fatigue leaves there is some fresh writing to do.

When you can switch up your actions like this it makes it easier when you get back to it. So simply put what can you do? Do something else. Anything else. Even if it means doing some cleanup just so you could get a different thing in front of you. When you feel better it could take an hour to a week but keep doing it and you can go back with fresh batteries.

What you can do is best work with what you have to bring the best result. You cannot say you will touch everything and have it be turned to gold. That is okay though sometimes all you have to do is just keep your head up and keep on til morning. Things can get better and while there will be a lot of difficulties after dealing with it when you just top giving it more energy or effort then it needs between steps it allows you to focus more on other things.

Follow the IG, drop by on twitch, enjoy the things I do, tell me about the things you do, and as always.

Stay Strong.

Millwordy in 2022

I will be going back to college, I will be working on millwordy, I will be releasing books and whatnot and now it is just something where I am trying to put it all together in a time frame that does not make me feel like crap. The more things that need to get done the more it is going to put my energy to the limits and moving forward.

Through workouts and taking vitamins and trying to eat better I have gotten some usage back, but there is still the part of my body where always want more but I think that may just be a personality defect, no matter how much I try it will always be something where I want to try to do more. So I may have a few more books coming out I guess and I am hoping I can release one next year. That would be a good plan.

One million words and so many plans and goals had been going now and it seems these next twelve months will seem to be important for the rest of my life and looking at that it makes me a little nervous. Failure here may be something where I cannot get back, but making this year work. To a new year of challenges and hopefully of goals being hit, and of hopefully life getting better despite the world trying to get worse.

Will explain more next week.

Stay Strong and Merry Christmas.

Writing at Nyoom Speed

Writing, writing, writing. I have been writing a lot recently and it has added up to a few things that will be sold soon but right now we have to go over the little treats for you all. Two projects. One, a selection of fanfiction. I challenged myself to write and that can be picked up off of Gumroad, that is something you do not need to pay for, none of my Gumroad ones are. Just, if you do want to pay something I would appreciate it.

70k of words as short stories in 2k to 2.5k each about a character I have in the game, because I like the game, and that is enough for that right now. Share it, join me on twitch, (https://www.twitch.tv/mrbigtanderson) have a good time, but there is more that will be done in other things because you know I cannot rest for long periods of time. It just does not work well for me that way.

Also, after cost out it looks like I can sell each 4oz container by volume will be sold five dollars per but as one can see, there is a fair amount in each one and it will have flavors that will boost your food from the flat to the gold, but there is a video that is in the works. Five dollars per is at the high end of where I wanted it to be, and was within the range already in the stores. I still haven’t worked out the whole mail thing yet. Working on it, though, but it is a lot done in the month so far and we got a week and change to go.

We are going to get some stuff done, and hopefully have fun. It has been a rough road so far, but like everything you got to be more hard headed then your obstacles, and while I have had some low points, from the death of family members semi recently to issues with the body, it is still sweet to get a little progress. More is coming.

Stay Strong Everyone.

This is the face of nyoom. Speed unfiltered.

Progress and Pain

It has been a while, but I have done a lot. First, I got a few mixes made up and done, and while I like the flavors, I run the numbers a couple more times to make sure everything is where I think it is.

When I began sharpening my formulas, I wanted to have a few products, I wanted a couple and landed with seven seasonings and mixes I am happy with and can make. I went through the numbers once, and after tweaking the recipes again, I should be fine. Still, it is nice to be sure when starting, which is good because I needed something to take my mind off the disaster my family has become.

I got an upgraded formula to the first three items, and now with the following four, I can even say I have a powdered veggie stock made out of vegetables, no extra chemicals. I got a pizza seasoning that is not spicy but adds so much more flavor. I also got something for some dessert shops. I made an apple chocolate truffle with my production techniques, and it feels good to know you got something that can’t be beaten.

I really need to do this with my good camera. All 7

I feel good about specific products with business-to-business usage and then specifics for selling to the peeps and populace in different stores. However, one of the few things that still bothers me is going to be simple production. I can only make so much of each item with the work needed, with the ingredients taking two days per round.

Often one day is needed just for the drying and after cooking, cleaning, prepping, seasoning, often taking a half-day to a full day, and on top of that, my body will not be able to do it all with no breaks. Still, with the time of two days from fresh to seasoning and testing and retesting and being happy with what we have, we can do three cycles of cooking and drying every week. One day will be enough for additional rest, tinkering on new formulas, taking a rest day.

So after one more set of number crunches, I will be ready to advertise and go. Also, I got some ideas for more products and stuff to make things happen.