I have an idea one that you may not see in connection to this blog if I did it right. Something where I hope it will get me more to the efforts of trying new things and in doing so show people success can be had. There has been progress on goals and for that I am grateful. It just is not enough.
What do you do when things are not working, well you go to do something else and see if it is better. Cannot say it will be, but for what I hope it will be enough for me to get some supplies together because one thing that had to be pounded in my head is one cannot give if one does not have and that means this year has to be my best one yet, granted college has been good for me but it cannot last.
For this project thought it is integral I do not speak of it again until it is done. For the progress on that I am looking for there needs to be something to be removed and this experiment. I hope at the end it will be something that we can look toward as something that could possibly shed light on a question because over my writing I hemmed and hawed for so long that soon some of them would go to grade school if they had been children.
The experiment will be based on this, because what if someone who is wanting to do something has no name? My guess, is that there will be an openness that come with it and to do so while there will most likely be some imitators on the case that there is any level of success and there hopefully will be, it just is something that sometimes I do not feel proud of the progress I have done or the thing I have and it just is held for some reason so hopefully this experiment takes care of that.
What the other thing is well, I have been very angry and while trying to make it positive there is a point of rage for me that is not hot, it is cold, it is ice cold and it is not something fun for others to be around. I do need to use it though so maybe this is the way to make sure things can stay separate until maybe some of it is used up. This year was rough and I have been dealing with more then what I can handle and talking to therapists had been something that has been rather fruitless.
Even though the experiment will have some releases there should be some this next year, we shall see.
Stay strong and happy new year
Question for those who stayed, what are some things you are afraid of in your projects and some things you would like to get to?