Feeling Nothing but Hate

Let me tell you a small story, a long time ago, a young boy was abused by his family, he had been beaten daily, past discipline, his joints were twisted, his being concussed multiple times and due to his size when he begun going to school other kids had tried to further the damage. Making an example in his first able time to defend himself he broke a classmate’s wrist who tried to put him facedown in the bark.

Years passed and the fights continued, being part of a town going through a drug boom facilitated the ease of fighting and a police department so dirty and hands off had only made one needed to brawl at times.

He was known for brutality in fights and was willing to injure himself and others to make a point. Things had happened he lost people in horrible ways and it stung him deeply. After the last funeral he went to he thought the world was against him. That is the point we are talking about because a lot of people may be feeling this in their lowest, that their world that they inhabit actively hate them and that those who do not agree with them are the enemy.

From that story let me give this piece of advice of anyone with that exact mindset thinking the world can be reforged if enough anger is cast at it blindly. It won’t. You will hurt your own cause enough that you will be deemed a failure and a fool in relation to it. Anyone on the basis of that cause will look at you and deem you unfit to even be made knowledgeable of any coming changes in your direction, and some will take the hatred you have garnered from your own actions or lack there of and deem you the problem.

Blm, Antifa and the Proud Boys are groups with exactly that, both sides have actual problems and both have insults flung at them from the other just for the sake of emotional prizes and it just does not work.

Be mad, sure, think the world hates you? Most times it just doesn’t care, but if you can focus it on positives then make it work. For that to be achieved it is something that needs to work for all sides. Of the conflict. Focus your anger at the trappings of the cycle rather then those who execute and you will find your capabilities much more warmly received.

Alright enough of the Dr. Phil talk.

Stay Strong.

End of the Year Problems

Still working on progress here between health issues but I had a lot of rough pages that should be coming in posts over the next couple days. Many areas are coming out of lockdown and here in Oregon we still have to deal with a lot of it.

At the end of the year a lot of protections on the rent pause will be lifted and many areas will be suddenly trying to charge many people however months rent were left unpaid. Repeat for car payments, for utility bills, and for several more things there are a lot of things asking for a lot of money to a lot of people that many may not be used to.

The first thing for many people would be to try and turtle hoping that they get pushed down the list. It will not work because many times these companies have been running for the time and have had less money brought in the never making it twice as difficult. Some people may think that the situation has deemed some extra mercies, but you need to put yourself in a position that shows you are willing to work with people.

Businesses, whether it is a car dealership or a bank or even your landlord, when you take initiative in a way that is respectful and honest will be much more lenient and much more accepting to work with you going over any options they can come up with. You may have to take a deep breath, but hiding will ruin more then just being honest to it. You do not want to take that damage to your credit because it will just make the recovery period that much longer.

Stay stronger and be honest and you can get through it.

Pandemic Chaos

I still have friends who are homeless for one reason or another, some have health problems where staying would only make it worse believe it or not. (We tried on that one) Talking to them through all the chaos has been pretty sobering, because whatever hope had been is completely gone. My home has been completely devoid of hope for many people left living on the street.

The pandemic has made the city look at its plans and the signs of the failure have been noted earlier before. One that was done where I was ready to go all political and rant and rave, but honestly reading over it, it didn’t bring anything more to the conversation. I am not happy about Portland for various reasons and I am working on a long term plan to make it better.

Want something done right, do it yourself. I will say that this chaos has been something that ripped away a lot of facades and right now there isn’t a lot where people can hide. Less stabbing in the back and more people against you at the start, but if you can explain to people where to put their passion then a mountain can be moved daily.

Let’s just say a lot is currently in the fire. We all can get better and I hope that through this blog you can see how you can do more as well from homelessness to disaster relief to things that can even make camping a little easier, and that is where I think I will keep it. Mostly on those subjects so if you are homeless a lot of the info can be useful still and even if you camp it can be beneficial.

Stay Strong and Stay Tuned

Something I have Been Working On – Together We Rebuild

I had worked on some sticker designs for various things and while I am still working on the one for the blog, this had come in and I am thrilled about it.

Together we Rebuild, this will be on the product page soon, but i think with everything going in my home stat this could be a nice little thing. I just bought a hundred to give some away and what not. I think right now, everyone just needs to know that no matter how bad things you think are, together as a group of different people, with different opinions will work to make our lives better in the light of those who try to break it down.

Stay Strong.

When the State Burns

Yup, Oregon it is not fun. In any case here are some tips if you find yourself ready to bolt.

Get packed. Take a bag for each of the people leaving and have it as ready as can be. Mine is laying with just enough space for my laptops and tech gear, I can toss them and run if needed. Clothes, papers, cash, etc. make it as much as you can. Take another bag for snacks and make sure to take a whatever is needed for the pets. Sounds like a lot but the point is to have the packing almost completely done so that at moments notice during disaster you can bail.

Gasoline may be hard to get if you try to leave with the crowd so having the tank on your car filled is going to be important and if you have a spare then you want to fill it before you need it. Make sure you get some snacks and drinks that would keep you going during the however long drive to get to a safe place.

If you are going to be in the cross hairs of some harsh weather or a disaster then you need to go do it now. Stop reading and go get it done, if you feel that you need to there is no reason to push it off. Disasters are going to make life miserable and do not expect for the state or your insurance to move quickly but it is still important to go and gather the resources now.

Done? Good, this is more of a post that is useful for anyone in a situation they may need to move from so this could be us in Oregon at this time, the gulf coast every hurricane season and a litany of anything else.

You may not have a place to go but it will be easier to go from a car then if you have no way to get out. Take it day by day and remember to take something to relieve stress, a favorite book or something because it will be the difference fro ma breakdown and staying strong, small things add up quickly in such situations.

In any case sorry about the time where no posts came up but, I am working on a couple things and between everything things got pushed further and further down the ladder.

Stay Strong.

From the A Burning State

Yup, Oregon it is not fun. In any case here are some tips if you find yourself ready to bolt.

Get packed. Take a bag for each of the people leaving and have it as ready as can be. Mine is laying with just enough space for my laptops and tech gear, I can toss them and run if needed. Clothes, papers, cash, etc. make it as much as you can. Take another bag for snacks and make sure to take a whatever is needed for the pets. Sounds like a lot but the point is to have the packing almost completely done so that at moments notice during disaster you can bail.

Gasoline may be hard to get if you try to leave with the crowd so having the tank on your car filled is going to be important and if you have a spare then you want to fill it before you need it. Make sure you get some snacks and drinks that would keep you going during the however long drive to get to a safe place.

If you are going to be in the cross hairs of some harsh weather or a disaster then you need to go do it now. Stop reading and go get it done, if you feel that you need to there is no reason to push it off. Disasters are going to make life miserable and do not expect for the state or your insurance to move quickly but it is still important to go and gather the resources now.

Done? Good, this is more of a post that is useful for anyone in a situation they may need to move from so this could be us in Oregon at this time, the gulf coast every hurricane season and a litany of anything else.

You may not have a place to go but it will be easier to go from a car then if you have no way to get out. Take it day by day when you are on the road and remember to take something to relieve stress, a favorite book or something because it will be the difference from a breakdown and staying strong, small things add up quickly in such situations.

The reason I write all this is because it is the simple things that will save you or make your day much worse. Take care of the details and stay strong in your life.

Fight Club From Homeless Camps

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It is unfortunate but fighting does exist in the homeless community and as I said before, everyone of them will have something to make them be able to do more damage, a stack of quarters, a stick, a blade, a needle, mace just for some examples. Considering everything going on with the Portland riots, and don’t worry I got a bit of a thing on that coming later.

When people are passionate, on drugs, or think you are Satan and want to cut others short better be ready to learn quickly when and how to fight because you will get stuff stolen at least once. Camp or pack no matter how you have it if you are out long enough you will need to defend yourself or you may find your life made much more difficult as someone tries to separate you from your gear.

A few tricks that you need mentally will make any attempt a little better if you keep it in mind. Being threatened with a weapon you want to figure out how to control the situation. Doing so is first figure out your capabilities and where you need to run away, and where you need to stand and fight. This is something of a thought exercise and one that takes absolute understanding. I am not going to win a fist fight just as it stands. I am crippled I have nerve damaged and if one my extremities is flaring then I need to be. I do have a pretty good head on my shoulders so defending that I can usually think up something a little more brutal then a punch, a kick to the bollocks is a good start.

Rule two, this is not being graded. You are not in UFC this is what some people would call a street fight so by that let me go over the rules. Win, that is it, just win. Do what needs to be done to get the point across when you have to.

Number three, never feel like you need to fight everyone. Honey will get more then vinegar sometimes, and it very well could be the anger is based out of misunderstanding. Figure out what is the difference between needing to step up and seeing if there is another way, and for each person it will be different how it is graded but knowing is half the battle on that.

Four. Pick your gear. Often you want something light enough to be used without it being taxing or small enough it doesn’t take a whole lot of space. Try something that would be legal to own, because there is a chance the cops may be involved and you do not want.

Finally be aware that some times you will be in a no win situation. This is something where you need to keep your head on the swivel and to keep in mind figuring out where it is good to defend yourself and needing to bail. This may sound mental, like all of this will take more of your mental faculties then if you are just thinking you would roll up, arm up and get ready to start up against anyone.

Last. This is more in reference because of riots and people who may need to defend yourself. Do not under any position use a weapon that could make your life worse. Baseball Bats with glasses is a no-no and baseball bats with high heels is absolutely not good, and if you want to wear heels go for a low comfy flat, otherwise someone cant take the back of your she out and you go to the earth

What to do When Bored

Boredom is something right now we are all dealing with and while you some people may think being homeless means you can get everything done with people, the thing is that is true, until you get tabbed. After that you will find people start moving away from you. Your best bet then would be how to pass the time without getting cabin fever for your tarp or tent, yes you can get it.

For a lot of people this pandemic is the most difficult moment of their lives because there is no social life here, there is not going to the Starbucks or Dunkin for a coffee. If you have a job, your hours are cut. If you are filing for unemployment you won’t get it yet, and if you are disabled you will find SSDI do everything in their power to shutdown people looking for it who may deserve it. All that even if it isn’t the worst moment in your life just in portion after portion of your life of getting shut out makes you wonder a lot of things.

No matter if it has been the worst or not you are in it now. Put your eyes on the target, and spend thought after thought to learn everything. You can take a look at the negative and make peace wit hit because no one goes to actively make their lives worse.

Currently we are in a time where some people are falling into some negative habits, using the windfalls instead of rent on other things, it is so bad it is a meme now. Despite rent being paused it is still needing to paid and while some can’t some are just taking advantage. It can be said that if the roles were reversed they would wish that people do their best and pay what they could. A little is fine to keep some things rolling because that is using a tool (money), but over doing it can make you look like a fool.

What would be some things you can do? Learn a new hobby, the amount of information available even with just a half decent phone is absurd. Now, if you want to learn the basics of a skill you can just tap it in somewhere and get a couple ideas or moves or thought exercises. Make yourself better because the time will go by and it is a place where you can get out miles ahead of where you started.

Stay strong and learn something new.

Chaos Never Changes

There is something to be said when the world and its circumstances are whipping about you like a gale and you know not only who you are, but can keep your bearings while the world around you loses theirs.

It is something so simple it is almost lost, it is the single thing you look at would never expect but having such things in your head giving you a path can make things easier when you are in a positions you never have been in before. From previous articles, the point of learning that will be important to only as a person but in whatever situation you are in. When you push yourself to the new and unknown situation you have that inner dialogue that gets you to actively guide with a moral compass, and it gets you to think in ways that some may deem out of the box. The more experience through the process the easier it gets for you to do so, and then we have where the new may not seem so new and you feel more in your element even when it isn’t the case.

Chaos has its place as does order and to find your best you need to be aware, your reaction to chaos will be how you can grow from it or shrink from it. This war of a letter is going to be something where we can all learn something to better ourselves, not because we are bad people but because no person is perfect and to learn is to grow.

The point right now is just to take things one thing at a time because no matter how much you want to think about everything the human mind can only focus on so much. Cut the problem down to sizable bits that are easier to manage and you can find yourself through it much easier then if you just looked at the big picture all the time. Look at the big when you want to find your best target, but after that just take to the path and go from there, one step at a time, and you will go far.

Even if you are not homeless you will find yourself growing much more when you try to do new things and grow as a person. That bad ass you always liked in the books and movies could very well be you after a couple of months of years and really applying this. Learn how to pack better, pick up some survival tactics, keep it all in the bag of tricks so when you need to get through the unknown you have just the trick for the occasion.

When you want to make the world better, just better, you need every trick you got to get it done. Everything how it is online and in the real world, without learning from the moral compass and trying to learn we will all fail.

Now, I have begun seeing this hashtag on twitter #generalrevolt and saying how the homeless situation is on the republicans. It is not. It isn’t all on the democrats either, its not big city or small town, its a problem. Unfortunately, we have all gotten caught up with using it as a political baton that we forgot how to handle it.

Just talk with people and stay strong and I will do the same, with how my city is going, I feel that I may need some of that strength you all have. I feel that this will be done the hard way because of people being so stubborn, and seeing what is coming in Portland currently.