Seeing as I do not have anything to say but to keep in the habit of making posts. I am going to do something different.
This is Clodsire. It is cute, and I hope it brightens your day.
Yes, I will do serious posts again. Just felt that sometimes a little spontaneous brightness is fine. What are some thing you like? Could be pokemon, pets, favorite animals. Just things that make you happy.
Recently the week has been rough. Things were going well, but I realized a reason that I had not heard from someone was that they no longer with us. It kind of stings because this teacher was someone who I had talked to the last conversation was about my nerve damage had blocked me from a lot and she just said “You will make it.”
Well, cut to a couple months after that conversation, she died, no one told me, she never made mention that she had been sick for a couple years afterward. Just, it stings, I felt like I should have put it together, but from what I heard after being shocked by the news, no one else knew either. Meaning she kept it to herself. Which would be like her, it’s just stings because there was something that could have been something she would have liked to work on since I am a student senator. Unfortunately, she was someone who did not want to show weakness and it hurts.
She was smart as a whip, and honestly the world is a little dimmer now that she is gone. It hurts that I did not know for so long. One of the few times I cried too, but she was an anime fan. So this would be something she would have been happy with me using.
With all the flappery about people complaining about gas grills there is enough to squabble over. I will just say the following on gas stoves. They are not going away because it would hamstring every restaurant most of those that have survived for any time will laugh at you for trying also. I read the report, and considering they tented up particulates without calculating dispersal rates, how much is breathed in on a regular basis, or even the difference of psi for the gas between residential and professional meters then I am not even give it a second glance. It has more holes then a mini golf course and the second time I went back to study’s website it had been taken down. Arguing against gas stoves right now just shows you do not know how important it is in cooking.
That aside, because that one was really bad something else has been happening over and over again. To quote George Carlin.
Now, you may think this is some political rant based on my own party. Well SIKE!
It seems to me that people in groups seem to take something say like the gas stove and then try to make themselves the Grand Poobah of idiotic decisions. We got people out here in groups trying to get the team award for the Dunning-Kruger effect.
For those who do not know Dunning-Kruger from the Britannica, not the best source for everything but does well for majority.
“Dunning-Kruger effect, in psychology, a cognitive bias whereby people with limited knowledge or competence in a given intelligence or social domain greatly overestimate their own knowledge or competence in that domain relative to objective criteria or to the performance of their peers or of people in general.”
Now, on this blog I have in full view explained my own bouts of wall to wall stupidity and have had to take the heat from them and tried to give as good as I got. Some people hear the protest of the first, and then just run their gas stove just because. Then one group thinking stoves are Hitler and the other one using it as their potpourri are dueling and there has to be a portion of the population who looks at the groups of dipsticks and wondered how the dumbest are also the loudest. Well, I have been practicing so if you know someone that is belonging to either group, either everything is evil or we must overuse to the point of stupidity the things the first group mocks sit them down right here.
They here? Okay.
The world is not going to end and just as much as you want to help, wagging your finger does nothing, trust me, I know. This blog is a almost a decade of attempts, because remember was a leftist here.
Getting people to change stoves to electric, which is an investment for the majority of people, would be a further energy drain on many systems already taxed too far, does not have the quality as gas, and often takes half a year to ship even if someone decides to do it. You are not reading the room, in fact you are clueless.
Can there be good electric stoves, yes. Do they do some damage? Most likely. Did the study fail in describing that? Yes. It makes you look like a snob and no one wants to help you when people think you are putting your nose up or forget a few other factors that can be pretty important to people.
Read the room, read how other people are living, and you may make this place better and find some common ground places everyone can start. Good? Alright. Go have a nice meal or something. For the love of all that is good in the universe do not cut your gas line out of protest without letting the gas company know.
Alright, time for the other side of the show.
Yes, I know arguing it was stupid. Yes. I did read the paper.
Just give me a couple moments because what you are doing is not helping the cause you want to defend, I understand their has been some stupid calls by people who think they know better and did not have a clue if you gave them two consonants and a vowel. It may be very cathartic to tweak their nose and have them smell the shit we all call living in modern year (2023)
All I would ask is this. If they want that then sum it to a challenge. If someone can make an oven that runs off a clean fuel that is not electricity and is safer, let them make it and give it a try. You don’t need to mortgage your home, when you have the chance be open to it and honestly do so. Tweaking and trolling is fun. It is getting to the point where some of the people who say such things as just running it for fun or the other side sawing through their gas line are really doing it and would you like to know how I know?
I did work taking calls for a gas company, that guy who you had to tell smells like rotten eggs after bifurcating the line behind the stove and asking him if you should try to take a look? That was me at some point for about a year of my spare time. Taking calls for accounts and working on things there would be at least a half dozen calls for our team that only worked for customers in two states all about something smells like gas, how someone tried to dig a pond in their yard and hit a pipe, how someone shut down the gas to a hospital and fire department.
You may be laughing because people just COULD not be that stupid? Everyone who has worked for a gas company is nodding because they get those calls too. In short, be open be thoughtful, do not troll so much and please do not protest where you have to call someone saying it smells like rotten eggs. It happens every day, and I have facepalmed hard enough the other teams could keep track for an accurate count.
Something I hope to look back on and see a bunch of things crossed off, and if I remember it an easy and entertaining call back at the end of the year.
Release something, now with projects going on what I have and if it may be under my name will be something different. As long as it came from me, under whatever name I use for different reasons I hope to release something like a book, program or something.
I would like to live on my own. Currently I have been living with a roommate and have been doing it long enough, I need my space.
Continue doing well in school, at this point I have had a problem in just one class and I am still on honor roll despite it.
I would like for the blog to do better, although granted to define it as off the rails from original purposes is an understatement of the greatest caliber.
Do a physical event again. Despite being disabled I feel I have been getting much better health wise especially over the last twelve months.
Get my teeth fixed. Unfortunately why my body does not use some minerals despite ingesting them, like calcium is something we are still trying to figure out. Luckily we caught it before bones went fell osteoporosis.
I want to do more on twitch, and been trying to push it further. Currently the goal is to get to 500 followers but I need to work on being more entertaining.
I would like to travel to another country finally. I have never been to another country and there are a few places on my list. I would count something out of state or going to conventions again
Start a successful business. Pretty simple as to why.
Be happier then I was last year.
If I remember this I hope to go back and see how many of these got knocked off the list.
I wanted to have this be the end-of-year post where we look back at the time and what has been done and bring some hope to the future. That is what I wanted. However, some things happen that make you feel like you got to take yourself out of whatever mood and deal with some weapons-grade stupidity.
For those who did not know, there are some problems with the D.A. of Portland. The work put forward has caused many of the city’s woes, and there have been many posts based on lousy decision-making. Things get worse for an entire year, having the area break records you do not want to break if you are in those positions, crime rate, murder rate, and gun violence are things you want to keep down.
All of this may be news to those in the offices of the city commissioners and the county district attorney. Still, I like to think it is that journalistic integrity that makes you stay, and I wrote all of that with only half of the usual sarcasm. This has to do with the D.A. specifically because I went to the county website and found the papers for the compensation or pay rates for everyone hired through them. Now, it is government, so you would expect some egregious, shocking, or brain-numbing numbers, and here is what was found.
Despite the work being a cavalcade of failure, despite it being some of the worst any D.A. has put forward in position for the county and the cost of everything up going up due to horrible financial decisions on almost every level of government. It would look bad if everyone had gotten a cost of living increase, but that would be at least understandable to a degree. Looking at the papers, you can see that it seems very much across the board there is an increase in spending.
After all, these people have to work for the government and to do it without hitting the escape hatch on life because all their work goes to very little, at least in this area. Some compensation is at least in the realm of possibility. There is one specific case thought that I would like people to look at. Now, as you can see from the pic above, the pay rates are active on July first. Looking at the difference between the two sets of paperwork, it would look really bad for someone to get a large raise, like 10% or 12 % even would be really bad.
How about a raise of almost 50%? Below is where I got the evidence, straight from the horse’s mouth
A 30k raise in the salary for some of the worst work that a D.A. has put on record. Failure so shocking it has brought down the whole county. This is someone in charge of charging people for crimes who push sentencing, and for all that was done, his office has been so soft that marshmallows look to it as a goal. A pool of water has more of a backbone than that office and the fact that with more death, more gun violence, and fewer things to charge for because now one can carry a small amount of any drug, those charges are gone. Antifa has been slapped on the wrist, often getting low bail or a misdemeanor when their records would dictate they should be in for years. Andy Ngo did a great set of explanations on that on Twitter @MrAndyNgo
Between 21-22 and 22-23, the Multnomah County D.A. has gotten a raise of almost 30k in their salary for work that would be best described as abysmal, and I wonder what they believe the reason is they earned that money.
I would like anyone to explain why that raise was a good idea, to explain it because I am lost. I would rather give that money to the waffle house employee who decided to give everyone who hopped over the counter a free sampling of hands. Most likely, she would get something done versus what we have now.
I have an idea one that you may not see in connection to this blog if I did it right. Something where I hope it will get me more to the efforts of trying new things and in doing so show people success can be had. There has been progress on goals and for that I am grateful. It just is not enough.
What do you do when things are not working, well you go to do something else and see if it is better. Cannot say it will be, but for what I hope it will be enough for me to get some supplies together because one thing that had to be pounded in my head is one cannot give if one does not have and that means this year has to be my best one yet, granted college has been good for me but it cannot last.
For this project thought it is integral I do not speak of it again until it is done. For the progress on that I am looking for there needs to be something to be removed and this experiment. I hope at the end it will be something that we can look toward as something that could possibly shed light on a question because over my writing I hemmed and hawed for so long that soon some of them would go to grade school if they had been children.
The experiment will be based on this, because what if someone who is wanting to do something has no name? My guess, is that there will be an openness that come with it and to do so while there will most likely be some imitators on the case that there is any level of success and there hopefully will be, it just is something that sometimes I do not feel proud of the progress I have done or the thing I have and it just is held for some reason so hopefully this experiment takes care of that.
What the other thing is well, I have been very angry and while trying to make it positive there is a point of rage for me that is not hot, it is cold, it is ice cold and it is not something fun for others to be around. I do need to use it though so maybe this is the way to make sure things can stay separate until maybe some of it is used up. This year was rough and I have been dealing with more then what I can handle and talking to therapists had been something that has been rather fruitless.
Even though the experiment will have some releases there should be some this next year, we shall see.
Stay strong and happy new year
Question for those who stayed, what are some things you are afraid of in your projects and some things you would like to get to?
One month to go. Well two weeks. someone forgot to schedule a post
This year has been rough in some areas and better in others and it looks like next year has some more action for all of us. I can just hope that the action is not a complete disaster in waiting and we need to move through it. Writing wise I have learned more then any year before and have done more then any, as of this post in the last game of tomes between editing and writing in all its forms there is more then 3/5 of a million words worth in thirty days. Six hundred thousand words in the term of thirty days has gotten me to learn focus. It has been all I have been working on and it has bore a lot of fruit.
Seasoning wise there is a lot that has been done in trying to find out ways to bring the best flavors to the bottle. Got some test subjects to try some things and even made some starts on a series of non fiction books that is not about foods. Formulas sharpened and the need for creation even further. Financially okay which is a lot better then some people I know and there is a plan to make things grow even further.
Writing wise a lot has been done and there has been a lot learned on the subject with it seemingly close that writing should be published. Research has been good so plenty of ideas are coming and now its just the biggest questions. One needs to build so one needs to get resources, and that seems to be where my next work is going to be coming. Taking what we have and working with people to build one needs tools and money is the greatest tool of the time.
What are some of your goals moving forward. One does not have to be for the new year it could be for something starting December, starting the day after this post goes live. Leave a comment, I would love to hear, and as always.
The city of Portland seems to read my blog because a few weeks ago I made a post that I wouldn’t write on it unless it was just something abyssal. A new high in low. It seems that it looked at my blog post, handed me a half open bottle of some hipster brew and asked me to hold it because it seems every day since then it decided to just keep digging for the grail in stupidity and I wonder here if they had focused such efforts into something good the progress that would be made.
So, rapid fire because Portland leadership is a font of idiocy so deep that we could only approximate the bottom. One. Jo Ann Hardesty One could lead a class on morals by taking what she had done in her job as commissioner and simply going, don’t do that. Now, that would be rude, she would have had to do one thing of good. Right?
Well, after running up debt and then being sued for it and then the hit and run debacle and then the uber debacle and then being an idiot in the pandemic, and the being an idiot during the homeless issue and backing the politics that drove business in the ground, and then not pushing for punishing the D.A for not charging those who had politics similar. I mean all of these are absolutely shameful. Calling a political opponent Republican when he is not just because he has a different opinion. Now, some may see that statement and think I support Rene. I have not seen his work and right now there has to be a major amount of work done for me not to count him as an abject failure just because he wanted the position. It is the risk that comes from people failing at it for long periods and really if one could fire the commissioners since Hales then many would.
The mayor before Wheeler I used to call him as interesting as wallpaper paste, now I have to say he had to be smarter then any person in politics. That or, he was one of the luckiest because after that things went down at the speed of gravity. Where things hoped to have change is after a cycle with the main morons and people went, there is no better candidate, no one wants to run and now we are happy with this. Well, happy is not the word I would use but people have shown they are willing to look away as long as things still stay as normal.
Wheeler, the mayor, went out to protest with people he thought would be the base of the city only to find out that he was wrong. Went on pushing the ideology and backed by the movements of the D.A crime spiraled out of control, police budgets cut, and then the spiral grew wider. There will be a time where Portland has to begin to grow but the ideology of the past decade needs to be discarded for the toxic process that it has been. Not because the political party is toxic, it isn’t but because what has taken Portland has been thought to be for some moral superiority and brilliant action when morally its often disgusting under the surface and tactically its as useful as a paper seat belt.
This is not going to Brown and what she did because she caused damages as well a lot of them, but everyone thought they could stand together against Trump instead of actually working on bettering their areas. If it had been done it would be the greatest flaunting against their foes because what the president had wished when those described above hated him, could look to their city and say. We are doing it and we got it. That would be too hard they found out and did the political thing of try to get people to look away except there was no place to look without their failings on full display. It is now something where other cities and states look at, and go ‘don’t be like that’.
I wish there was some good news, but there isn’t and won’t be for a while, but everything can change and Portland will too, it just may take some time.
Back in college, for the first time, I went to the Art Institute of Portland for a double degree program of video game art and design and media art and design. Considering what I have done since then, the things I picked up definitely helped, but unfortunately, I also had to pay my way then, which led me to work full-time at a gas station between short cooking jobs. Accelerated double degree with a full-time job is the fastest way to go from a thinking human being to something short of a crash test dummy without the impact.
Then it was not about staying up all night. There was one day a week that it had to be done because transit, work, and otherwise would not allow me to sleep. I got through a year, and when I had to stay up a week to study more, it all ended with a moment when I passed out in class. The teacher, after hearing about how there was no rest between classes ( which was once a week), called my roommates to take me back home and gave me a B for the course. Despite being three years with everything, I had only made it through one. My family didn’t want to help, and my roommates thought they would bury me if, for one reason or another, something didn’t stop.
Out of all the faults, I never wanted it to be known that I did not try. Often there would even be a point where people would get nervous if their body would break down. There was never enough backup to get enough rest, and there has been more than one doctor that past sins have come due, and my body is now footing the bill for it. With things going, there is always stuff to do and not enough energy, so if someone out there is maybe realizing the things-to-do list is getting a bit big, this post is for you.
Call it the learning of someone who crashed into a lot more times. Some hints from someone who may have walked down different roads.
Find the value (in time) of what you are doing. We have all been in places where we have to do one thing after another, and the energy is just running out. There are times when you need to push on being tired and times when you will need to force yourself to rest because that will get you the greatest return. Look to what you need to and find at what point your time gets rewarded. If you need four more hours but can only muster two, you may be able to get to four, but after a certain point, the time you take for today will be taken out of tomorrow resting up.
No one can go forever. Rest is not something that is needed just for the weak. Where people often forget in trying to act tough is that even machines will need some upkeep and often have people around them to make sure things are at peak efficiency. Rest is not a weakness. It is something to make sure your time working on things is going to be as close to a hundred percent as possible.
Never stop learning. One of those fortune cookie lines that touch on something people seem to still forget. When you stop learning, you stop growing. Does not matter if you are six or sixty, powerhouse or paraplegic. The moment you stop learning about something is when you need to figure out the exit strategy. Sometimes you will find things that may not give you value right after you put in. Sometimes, you will discover new ways to act in certain situations. Learning isn’t something that will provide a direct response. After you learn, you need to give it a couple tries. Other times what you know may not work for your situation.
We will keep the pearls there for now, but I do hope this year you have made a lot of progress, and hopefully, I will see you in the next one. We still got a few posts before the year ends, though.
This blog was initially built on the idea that is going from homeless to a semi-productive member of society, there would be some things I can see that others would miss. One could even say that because of my intelligence and my experience, there are bits and details that politicians do not have or would only use in the political batoning for their own political side. Those who have read this know my politics are rather centered and may pull from both sides depending on what may be needed for specific problems to be removed or handled.
That being said, this is not against a side or a party.
Portland is spiraling into something not a lot of people want to be associated with. Stolen cars are being broken down in broad daylight. Homeless people all over, and laws that made it so there would be no problem carrying all kinds of drugs without a problem. The city commissioners went through protest after protest. Then, there was no movement when they had to rebuild from the ashes. All people who are against them have been deemed from the opposing party when they have made error after error, and the city right now is hurting to the point where no one wants to live there. Nobody wants to open a business there, and there are more taxes than in the surrounding areas.
There are so many problems that when you look at what is going on, you have to ask, where do you start? From that, I do not have an answer, and there is something that seems to be missing every day. Like the city had finally died, it feels passed on. While moments had been good, looking almost normal for small snippets, it is about what the normal is, and the normal in the city is a far shadow from what it once was. There are not enough good things coming, and a lot of the bad has been left to fester, meaning there is even more that needs to get done to bring it back. Again, it looks terrible, and there is not a lot that can be done right now without people enforcing laws and punishing those guilty. None of this is new, and if it is, look in the back posts; trust me, there is plenty to get mad about.
I haven’t written about my home city because unless it is more people not doing their jobs or people trying politically smack people only to get a riptide in the wrong direction, there just isn’t much to say. People in charge in Portland must be the most extensive collection of abject failures in politics. If any of them can look from this time and say they did a good job, I would love to hear their side because it looked like they just sat and played Genshin Impact all term.
Who knows, when things change, I will write about it, and if something is horrible, I will do that too, but right now, I really do not want to. May do some cheap and fun foods to make for later. With the cost of everything, we can all use a couple extra pennies for groceries. We shall see, though.