Adam Ruins His Argument

Money is a strange thing to me. It is a tool, something to which to buy time, energy, or skill. The problem is that many people will often try to get tools and never use them. At all. Getting money for the sake of having it makes no sense.

Let us replace one tool for another, one variable for another, and run it through a similar. Would you go and collect as many hammers as possible and fill a room with them? There is a lot of hatred for millionaires and billionaires, but as they can amass so well, they can also lose, which is what people like Adam forget.

I disagree with Adam, but just as his title suggests, his views

 “Why There’s No Such Thing as a Good Billionaire.”

While trendy, it is, however, very much incorrect. Not even opinion related. It is just wrong. As he goes on blustering about the causes that could have been done better or even the best possible way, there are problems in his arguments from the get-go.

One. Nothing is ever perfect. You may not like them and think they are rampaging idiots buoyed by money and a family. Still, we live in a world where we apply emotion to logic and expect logic to bow, only when it does not for us to be shocked. Even I do it, so nothing against him here. His example with Patagonia is how the value went to a charity run by the family minutes after making a claim. He could have done so and let the family do so if the most good was going to be achieved. Once I thought it was sarcasm when he started on, but as it continued, no, he actually seemed to mean it.

Two. This is another thing Adam has little standing on. What is good? If you said, “it depends,” or “It depends on what each person sees as good, ” or some variation, you are correct. Adam has a set of things that are the most important to him, and I have a set of my own. When something is done, and one can claim it is genuinely inherently evil, one needs evidence. I think Adam is a buffoon buoyed by an echo chamber of braying donkeys but is he evil? No. Passionate, yes. Motivated, yes, correct. No.

Marketing, networking, and PR are tools that those who have wielded them well will tell you the value, and with those funds, when you have an instrument you know and use well, what do you often do. Artists go from Crayola to Prismacolor, mechanics get better tools, and surgeons and data nuts get better energy drinks. When you know something, and you use it well, you upgrade the physical items and, often after that, learn the more advanced technique. If you do not like how someone uses their tools, there really is not much you can do save to ensure they cannot get it. It’s my blog. Sometimes I go on tangents.

Adam’s kvetching notwithstanding, it goes to show something, we are a lot angrier as a people now when someone else has a hammer and goes to do their thing. We get so mad that someone has the tool we do not, so I ask you, if you don’t like the tool, why not change the value of the tasks they try to assist. If what they do is not so important, then the value will decrease. If you do not like how they handle their hammers, make sure they can do less with them. Make things so they cannot use them. Every tool, whether money or mallets, can be made less effective, and in doing so, the best worth will push those to at least use it or watch it become nothing.

Going through economic classes in micro and macro and accounting so far makes me wonder what people need, personally, for what will be required. I have to start getting a big of hammers together.

Lift well and Stand Strong.

Panic Attacks and Amazons

People have bad days, sometimes they have days where you wonder why you got to a certain point and how they can do so without having at least a big migraine or you have a panic attack. Everything gets to the point where you just want to survive while doing something. This past week was sort of that to me. Roommate was spiraling, people did not want to do their job because they never had to, other people were getting pushed, and no one seems to be reading the rules and laws to which a modicum of civilized culture is maintained.

Overall not a fun time. Sometimes you need to get through the challenging moments. Now, some may be surprised to know I do get panic attacks. It happens when I feel things are slipping past me and are essential to me, like when I miss a point on a quiz or a test. I get into this feedback loop of my own self-depreciation, just going over how that point was the most important.

Now, one can pass a class when you miss one point. It is a rarity when that is not the case. Still, we need to remember when you are in a panic attack that, you are in a place where survival instinct is in one area, and your normal activities are in another. You are held between the two, where things feel both fast and slow to the point where you feel out of place, even if you are sitting down. The thing is that no matter what happens during your bad days, you just need to get by. You need to make it and finish whatever you are. Afterward, you are just sitting in a funk of hatred and wondering where you failed and how you go on but what happens when things are not going as you need them to go.

I am so happy for those who never have it because a panic attack is a royal kick to the head. Not fun to the degree that I would rather wrestle an amazon practicing leg scissors than do it again. It is a great pain, and I think suits did a great job showing it.

Particularly the last couple of minutes, but sometimes you just have to get through the bad times because, with enough practice and enough work, the good times will outnumber the bad.

Hope you have a good time, and stay strong.

200800 Hours

Value your time

I cannot stand wasted time, that is to say I don’t mean be serious all the time. Sometimes a bit of time invested with a giggle can be enough to keep flying during the tough times. This is some math though, let us say on average a person lives to 80 and there are thirty years where you are a kid or out to find yourself or whatever. Means you have fifty years, and working at 8 hour days, five times a week. Comes out to about 100000 hours, if you include the 8 hours out of work, and you sleep the last 8 it means for fifty years of work on the job and your stuff you have 200800 hours.

200800 hours for everything you do. All of your work boiling down to what you got done in those hours. Seeing that number is scary for some and to see your life in such a finite state where it is the product of that time, there is still the chance where you may not get the full amount of time. Tomorrow is never guaranteed. All that time, what do you spend it on and what would make you happy when your time is up.

Some may also see that is rather dark, but for me it kind of keeps my head on the ground. Never waste time, know your value, and when others want to lower it, get out of there. No villain or anyone worth their salt are looking those hours and wondering how to fail that kind of investment. When other people make you feel worthless you have time to work into whatever you wish.

Stay Strong.

One New Book on Gumroad

Did some work on formatting this one and could not get it how I want it. The pdf was fine so we are going to work on the idea for Amazon and we will keep going we will tinker with this because the idea of AI art is something that has garnered some rage and of course there are those who wish to hide the fact it is made with AI. I feel some writing may be good with it, but for now this project is done. Can’t be happier about that. Progress made, progress done and another book down.

I did also change the gumroad page, it had the Genshin fanfiction anthology in entirety and the sarge’s verbal debriefing, both those have been removed. Quality could be better. That is how we learn though and we can definitely try again later. Sometimes we have to bang our head on the wall a couple times before getting what we want.

The books page will change obviously to match this and here is the link to the new book (click the pic)

Price is five dollars, but through this blog if you use the code highwind at check out it will take 50% off. That way you can get a little cheaper as a small token of thanks for the blog. Check that out. I think I will do another abstract book with some writings on the subjects of art and how it works in business. Could be a good project, but it is at the bottom of the list and one piece is done and there are others to do.

Somewhere between my raging at how stupid portland politics is, my own hopes, and how to be a villain we can find some things to enjoy on the blog into the future.

Of course stay strong.

Moments and Change

We all have moments. Moments where we look at how we have been and what we have done and realize something needs to change. It could be after a bad day, you get home, and people don’t talk to you or respect your opinion in decision making, it could be that when you are owed money, you suddenly find yourself unable to find them to talk to, but when the reverse occurs, you need to change your life to pay them back.

I have been there, and over time some may want to post joker memes and dream about them being a criminal to society. Well, you don’t need to do that, your life may need to be changed by your own mind, but I find that it is time that your body and the back of your mind wants you to work on something. Take those moments, and instead of getting mad, find what it wants you to focus on. I need to work more on my social issues. There will be things moving forward that will be hard for me because it is a weakness, and it does not work well in society, and I have to adapt. Those moments are saying.

““Hey, this is your brain cell speaking. Change your plan, dipshit!””

Sometimes your brain cell does not swear, but I have been a cook for a good decade. There is a lot of swearing between my years. Over the years, I have taken the time to translate what is common usage to be as specific as possible. For those who want the original mental soundtrack imagine a lot less patience and enough F-bombs to make any argument reminiscent of a fourth of July show.

When you get those moments, though, when you snap, when you look at your life and realize it has gone off the rails, some people will take the time to go out in a blaze of glory. Still, some will grow from it; in this case, the pressure will make diamonds out of you. It will turn you into a gem. You just need to make it through. Going through pressure cooker moments is tough because there is no trick or way to have it go away save for getting it done. Learn from the message, and I hope in doing so, your brains talk a lot cleaner than mine when sending those internal messages, but still, just take a moment and get back on the tracks you need before going again.

Stay Strong.

Beat or Be Beaten

I was on Twitch chilling on another person’s channel(Unceasingdragon), and they were a disabled streamer working out. The topic came to what disability is and how sometimes there are gifts if you can find them. Despite everything in the world seemingly going wrong and it feeling like the world is against you, there was something that we all agreed on, and that is you got two choices, sit and suffer or be the one to beat it. No matter how it is, there is something simple, and it is something I agree with.

When you are dealt a bad hand but have no way out, you learn to adapt, try to overcome, and sometimes fail. Outside of stopping to try, though, there is little that cannot say more progress cannot be made, and from that, all you need is effort and a little luck to make sure things fall in your favor. Sometimes it may take some time to fall in your favor, and sometimes it may feel like hell just to get out of bed in the morning, but you have to do what you must do.

Note: This came a week late due to being end of semester projects. After the death of Queen Elizabeth, I thought it was a good idea to let it wait until the following Monday, and then I had muscle spasm, so here it is

Now, I have been told that there are programs for people who are disabled to get help for example. That is true, it just takes, on average, six years, and you need to deal with some judges so stupid that if you had faith in people at all to read at a fourth-grade level, it is gone now. In short, for most, help ain’t coming, so you got to do the thing.

Minus the game, gun, armor, health, ai friend, and that makes it more difficult. Now, on top of all this, I have begun discussing being a villain. Some people are wondering what that is, and all of it boils down to this.

A villain is an antagonist to a hero. In a time where everyone is the hero of their own story, sometimes people take trying to be the hero for people too far and pervert what it means. When bad heroes exist, there should be an answer; in it, we find the villains, and one thing I can say about current goings on. Oh boy, we have a lot of bad heroes, so maybe it’s time to have some good villains. Being a villain does not mean you have to be evil. It is one of the meanings, but it does not have to be the one you pick. In fact, the one I use for this is simply being an antagonist to a hero. Being a villain, you can have some losses and come back where heroes may have to fight every time, and we all know in this world, sometimes a tactical retreat is a good option.

So coming soon, I will write on that subject and hopefully bring some positives to this blog. Goodness knows we can use it.

Stay strong

Villain Life

I love villains. Call it for what it is but in my life a lot of people who wore good titles like heroes and mentors supposedly were in it for their own needs and it seemed time and again that people who wore the good really were more rotten then those known to be bad. Hell, we can see that today. Every politician who says they care, every teacher who wants yo to do well only to make themselves look good or push you somewhere if they do not believe in you so their numbers do not fall. Parents who would supposed to help their kids only to beat and cripple them for months or years at a time

Then people would look at that and would ask me to be a good guy and time after time in my life when people and while I wanted to do good things. I could not say in confidence I was a good guy and it made me doubtful of myself and over time a lot of things had come to light but one of them was this. If I told you I worked from the bottom up and pushed myself despite disability and tried to volunteer and help others some may call that good, but I wouldn’t because I do not want to feel so sure that I would disappoint those who would think me to be a hero or even good.

Ever since then the self introduction has been a villain.”My name is X and I am a villain trying to take over the world in my spare time.” From that intro I have figured a lot out.

One, it throws all the stereotypes off because if you can say that seriously and defend it people are not used to it and hence have to work with what they see and what they know from you. In social circles it is a blanks slate powered from a bad title and backed by years of blurring lines from media. From that it has made me take a more accurate self cataloging of skills and abilities to the point if I know the personality test and my mood I know my results down to three points from disc testing to Myers Briggs.

Two, there is so much evil in the world and the majority of it is built on a lie. People think those that can be trusted can be trusted because they are the good guys and when someone claims to wear the black hat and does good deeds there is that little bit of mixed signals causing them to not believe everything to always have doubt. In this case that is a good thing because with doubt they may be able to see things that I cannot because of ego or other factors. To be a villain in public is simply to let your actions define you because no one has anything else to work from. Even if they try to tie your handle to villains there are so many that like a hero they would need to figure it out and that would after trying to find fault in your actions realize they are in the exact same position as they would be with a hero the only difference being nowadays one has used the title to lie and get more out of people and the other does the opposite.

Evil and villainy is different in my eyes and with so many words getting broader in meaning. This one though works off of a simple mechanic. It deals with the old adage “everyone is the hero of their own story” Well, below is the definition of a villain.

https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/villain

When the heroes do wrong it is time for a villain to stand up. One can be a villain and still do good because it all depends on the hero on is opposing. There a lot of heroes who are not worthy of the title and now I think it is time for some villains to come and show how things can be done.

So if you feel the world is not respecting what a hero is and people are tarnishing the title turn to something that would be once forgotten. Let your actions define you and be a villain.

Stay strong.

College Loans and Disability

You know, I was initially going to just make a blog post about some positive things in the twitch community. However, something a little more serious has come into play after some thought. So now I will preface it with this. I have tried to get statements from others having this problem, but they did not want to come forward and put their names on it. So the only story I have is my own, but I can say others have had this problem. Unfortunately, no one at this time wants to step forward.

For those who are unaware, I am taking college classes, particularly in two fields of study, business administration and quantitative economics, some pretty heavy stuff. Now I am starting my first few years at a community college and making sure everything has no hiccups. I thought of getting some school loans just in case I could not work my job or something were to occur where if one had to focus on schooling and not work for a time, then it could be done.

Here is the problem. Due to health issues and previous school loans, now in a degree that can no longer be worked, I have what was called a TPD discharge. A total and permanent disability discharge. This means the government in a different department looked at what I originally did and thought. “This guy is no longer medically clear to work the degree he spent time learning and we cannot in good faith have him pay on it.”

Now it also means for three years, I cannot take any school grants, and I cannot take any more school loans until that period is over. I got the help, but for three years, I was on my own if I wanted to go to school. I am not getting any help from my family as they are concentrating on burning everything they have for the sake of cigarettes and cheap nail polish. Grants do take care of classes, but to make sure rent is covered by something would be some relief that I could use. Now, with Biden declaring how a portion of student loans will be forgiven, it would be really good to know what I took out would be removed.

Well, no, I have some questions about the amount and how that will hit a market already ballooning with inflation (remember economics major). The problem is before anyone points at my school loans as a gotcha, one has to be aware. No subsidized loans were made available to me. In fact, the community college in question declared that either a signed note backed by my neurologist or doctor stating that my health was 100% and my previous disability was gone or there would be no subsidized loans available.

It sounded weird, so meetings online were planned and attended where we could go over them more in-depth. The amount asked was not in question as it was low enough it could be handled by a subsidized loan. Still, the fact the Portland Community College explained it was due to the three-year time frame that had already expired with evidence to prove it to them. I did not take my first semester until it was already passed and still made sure everything was cleared beforehand. This made the person dealing with their finances stumble and grasp.

“Oh well even though you are disabled the government doesn’t want to take loans that won’t be paid.”

“So you are because of my disability not allowing me to get cleared for subsidized loans?”

“Correct.”

I did not yell or scream. I simply to my lumps and decided to get more information. Now, I took this to some disability lawyers just to get their opinion, and the consensus was either the Portland area had lawyers with no testicles or there was no case to be had. The problem was the decision was to make sure the loans would be repaid. As they are subsidized, the school would need to okay them from government lenders, and because of that, I would not need to pay interest until I was done with school. It was not the loan givers making it so they could not be sued, and the school was making decisions within their right, according to the lawyers around here, so they cannot be sued. From this point, it was just aggravating because there were still problems to be taken care of and the resources available for others were not available to me.

There was something that could be done, but I adapted, and as it stands, I can continue to adapt. This has been something that others have dealt with, making me a little bit miffed, to say the least. I will try to bring more evidence, but I would like to hear from you.

After A TPD discharge has been used and after the three-year time frame has expired, should they, if able, go into college and learn something to better themselves? For example, should disabled people have the right to school loans, or should they not, or is it something in between?

In fact, I may also have something to write about to help more people. Also, sorry this was late. Between health and problems, time decided to move faster than I liked, but I hope you will like the content coming.

Stay Strong.

Bad Apples in Education

Yup, visual aids today.

You know, it makes you wonder if they think everything is such a problem rooted in white supremacy why they should leave. But, let’s be honest, these teachers have excelled since allowing BIPOC students and others do not need to pass requirements because requirements are more challenging for them, and they can’t handle them.

No, this is not a joke. They actually said that. Time for some receipts. You see, a lot of results are only based on information released every two years, and the last set was 2019, and 2021 has not been released yet. I would wonder why but I can guess the term harrowing shit show does not even begin to describe it. So here is what we know before they try hiding the news that all of this has gone very wrong.

First, this will be based in my home state of Oregon. However, sources will have things so you can look to your heart’s content in your home.

You may have heard all these things about the educators in our state, and you have to think that people are doing so good here that we are just wrapping up details. That we have the rest of the world of education on lock in the state. We may act like it, but we could be no further from that. On top of a racist governor, not one who says anything is racist but an actual one when she claimed through her office that requirements are too hard and colored students cannot handle it. I have gone one about the education in the state with varying levels of patience. So pardon me if the people in this state crow like they have won the game only to act like a pigeon shitting on the chessboard.

Teachers are getting paid more in the state. The average is sixty thousand dollars. It is now more than the average in the state. A lot of them, I am sure, use some of that money and put that towards the class, they should not need to, especially with the budgets of money going to these schools, but there is something else that is going on as well. This will piss off many people, but at some point, the teachers as a whole, their work needs to be looked at, and we have to say, is this what we want for our next generations?

Oregon is against a lot of private schools. They make it very difficult to work here, and I wonder why considering their test scores. We have, as a state, tried to make it more inclusive but less useful. Well, when people are just sitting at a desk for twelve years and cannot make themselves breakfast or cannot balance a checkbook and I see they have a diploma, the blame goes to the schools. Parents should be teaching them something, but they should be able to work within the state system and be comfortable that they are at minimum being taught enough that they can be the best version of themselves. Some may argue with it, saying that it is too high a target. That may be true, except they aren’t even getting the majority of students to hit grade standards. About a quarter can do it, which is taken from the state’s report card. Science-wise, it looks like maybe a third can do it, and reading and comprehension are about as laughable as it gets.

We are in the unfortunate position that people should be looking at the school districts. We wonder if maybe they do not have the best intentions because, as we can see from the results, they do not have the best results for their effort. There is a lot that could be done, but when the results have been so low for so long, and mind you, this is with online schooling capabilities, then we need to wonder.

Is this system working? If not, why is so much money being put towards it when clearly it is not doing the job? The value that money is getting in the hands of the education system is losing value through their actions.

Now, does this mean there are good teachers in the state? Absolutely, I have had a few. The problem is I have also had some nasty ones. I will not think the good ones would be happy knowing that all the time, effort, and energy they put into their craft is being pissed one by someone who can barely read to a standard themselves and has to teach others to do it. Also, that little quip that is the best-case scenario because, let us say, some of these bad teachers who claim everything is racist and claim everything is a microaggression, and it hurts their feelings. When the best case is misunderstanding how things work by people in that position needs to be put in question because it is not good enough by many of the worst parts of it.

I say all of this because it seems we are not done with this year, and I hope things do get better for the sake of our future. I want the state to be the best in education. I want people to come to Oregon so they can say they went through our school system because of the intellectual rigors and challenges we provide. I want people, whether poor, rich, black, white, Asian, or Indian, to come to the state and say…

“If I can make it through the school system here I will be ready to go for anything life can throw at me.”

Unfortunately, this is not being done. In fact, people are leaving with fewer skills than ever as the world competes on higher stages. It seems students through the school systems, which means that we will at some point either take the initiative and fix it or we will have to do it when it breaks completely. Considering how low these test scores are, I wonder when that will be the case.

https://www.nationsreportcard.gov/

https://www.wbur.org/onpoint/2021/09/24/oregon-dropped-test-requirements-what-that-means-for-the-states-testing-future

https://www.alecreportcard.org/state/

July is Over

There is a level where you do something, and there seems to be a part of you that wants to do the chaos dance, especially against a specific group. In Genshin Impact, the term ‘chaos mage’ may be familiar. For those who would play it, they would be in a single element, often shielded, and make your life that much worse in game. Out of game, a chaos mage is someone who does something intricate to anger or tweak the nose of a group. So there is a writing project that will add to the books to get everything even more chaotic, but this is something I had a giggle fit when listening to everyone talk about the lore of World of Warcraft, something I know less than some breakfast dishes about. An idea came that I should take the most egregious of the lore spinners. Such spinners think their crap doesn’t stink, and they own the book on all things within the universe and tweak their nose to the point they crack under pressure or laugh at the absurdity of my work.

On top of that, there is a bit of fun that will be a little later as this is also being used to pad my word counts a touch because let us say things in the writing competition I am in as come down to in the third week a difference of over 150 words. All the projects need formatting, getting to the point of hilarity. Remember, there is a large, almost nutty pile of things that can be formatted and worked on to their release, and it is getting to the point where things are silly if I do not. This does not mean they are great works of fiction, but over time I think they have gotten better from the first drafts. I need to get a lot of these out soon. After that, I will need to look at my classes and my projects, but something about competing is what I missed. It reminds me of who I was once and who I can be again, and for the briefest moments, I forget the pain and feel like I can charge one more time. I will be the first three-time winner, but oh boy, it will be tough to do it. Through this whole thing, it looks like I will be close to a million not in a year but in three individual months, and that is more than I ever thought done. If my score ends at 333k, that will mean there will be something to the tune of 850 thousand words written and edited in three months, and that will be amazing writers groups or not.

With that kind of fire, there are projects that will make a dip in the water, and there is excitement coming through me. It will not be an easy fight, someone is trying to make their second victory in this, and they had competed in one of the first events. Who wins, the old guard looking to show they can make a comeback or the current champ? Mind you, a rival is gaining steam. A shadowy writer is trying to catch up, so all of this converges at one moment where people can all try, and only one person will win. I will talk about how I did next week from this post, but like any day with a blog post, it must end with something.

Stay Strong.