Where Am I?

My this week was rough, but we are getting stuff done. Got some food for the recipes so provided I don’t get hit with the black plague or poisoned I should be able to get some of that in the coming weeks.

Grants for the business are in and if things go well I can get some help to get everything in order. Which leads me to the new page about Golden Spangle food, as time goes on that will be the first base for buying the products, currently it is just a logo. Things are falling in place for the business on the Indiegogo and I am looking at some things for the labels right now. Business class has been great in finding things that could be done to make the opening process easier.

Health wise has been a problem because I have through work gotten myself a bronchial infection and right now I am just trying to get as much done as I can while trying not to burn myself out. Being sick can really hammer your energy and doctors have given me notes to go back when at least the worst of it is done. Still, there seems to be more stuff do at every turn and then the projects currently not on the top of the docket still need some time and love so that is going to be fun soon.

Writing wise we had a bit of a setback as the heavy edits were not up to snuff so I sent all my writing back to rough draft and now we are pushing them through again starting with light edits to get that done a little better that way we can really polish it through heavy. We have been able to employ a few programs to help make that a little less painless and while it doesnt catch everything it gets majority out of the way.

College wise it has been draining but so far we are doing well and it has been good enough that we can prove to Vocational Rehab and get them to pay the rest. This semester had been a bit of a prove it where they had to see if I could be a full time student before getting the chance of doing all of this in stone and it is looking good so far. When all of this is done I hope there will be a lot at the end of this year that will be able to look at and say that much less to go.

Instagram I would hope to be at 200 followers but maybe I just dont do enough punchy stuff to get people interested. It happens, maybe they would join later. I am getting close to 400 on twitch and that is amazing to me so I got to figure something else with that.

Actually as I write this, I hit 400 so now we plan something cool and start aiming for 500, progress happens when you may not expect it sometimes.

This makes

Thanks for joining me so far and of course

Stay Strong

Last week today.

How was your week?

Ya, it has been one of those weeks. As of the writing of this I got about 10 days left in the month and 10k to go to hit my goal and then I need to try and make ground because next month is short. College is good we have gotten into a nice rhythm and it isn’t too boring so I just need to keep up on it, working through some programs to help for the education bit.

I want to work on all the details before even starting an Indiegogo because I don’t want to be someone who need all the extra time. Right now I can only work in the US. I may just have to pull the trigger on indiegogo for us people only right now.

So at some point it will just be time to pull the trigger and get stuff done and I even went so far to asking my family if they wanted to help. They said they were short on money paying for my sister’s horse lessons and paying off a new truck. It is fine. Family was something that never really worked for me. All of it just means I can do it alone.

All you can do is keep moving forward and even when family is poisonous. Looking into running for state government to start at least trying to help my area with a better quality of person. Some people in state government are good but right now the state is going down some bad roads and while there are other people that could do it, there is a line I remember.

“If you want something done right, do it yourself.”

Progress is progress and that is great it just sometimes stings and the the achy malaise just never goes away so you have to pick yourself up and keep working on yourself. There is always something to work on there are always faults to grind to a gleam, and one of the ones recently for me is that I do not take compliments very well.

My seasonings have been getting great reviews in testing. I have been complimented many times because of this and there is so much of me bound in the work that when I receive a compliment I make a face that looks like my brain is loading and failed. So I am trying to handle compliments with a proper thank you and enjoying it for a moment before moving on. It will be something I need to do because I want people to be so happy with my products and my work to compliment me, I just need to not insult them when I do not mean to.

In relaxing I have found myself liking the games of teamfight tactics and I think I might go for gold and blue rank in hyper role. Competing like that just makes me feel like the disability did not occur, and I am who I always was. It provides me that little bit of peace, that I am sure hunting for it my opponents wish I never found. I write that line with a smile.

So tell me about whaty ou are doing? Working on social media outreach? Projects got your eye for a while, let me know and we can chew the fat on it.

Stay strong everyone.

Banging My Head Against A Wall

Drying things yourself will be interesting. The items last much longer and are much easier to pulverize to powder. The problem is drying removes water which, takes away a lot of mass which means I will need more of it.

The good news is that it holds very well after being bagged up. Drying such things makes it valid for items like ramen packs, another source for a product line. If I can make a good pack in America, it could sell well.

When I can get a smoker that works for a smaller amount by cold smoking, I will work on it. Right now, I have a smoker grill, but it would be difficult to use it for smaller amounts. I wonder how that will work. In any case, maybe there is another way to get the smoking effect I am looking for.

Doing more research on who might be against me in sales is the Oregon Spice Company, which seems to only work with businesses. Through my searches in stores (when I could), I could not find any products they sold, which means they would only be competing on the business-to-business scale.

Then there was an issue that came from my family. I found out that my mother had died. The first thing that had been from that was actually a disappointment. A portion of my family had used her. Through previous visits, rare they may be, that she was not getting better care, and her own doctors and physical therapists have said just as much.

My sister would use everyone to make her own life better and emotionally manipulate all to do so. She was someone who made the deal to get our mother out of my care and under her own. Through my visits, the care she had brought and been much worse than under my supervision, and I knew it, and my mother knew it as well.

If all these people knew it, if the rest of the family understood what that meant, why didn’t they try and make an effort to give better care? Well, my father, who had the house, gave up. My sister was lazy and thought smoking was the better idea to while away her time. My sister’s husband, who lived with them, did his best but found caring for two kids and an elder and trying to clean up the house while doing his work, which was too much for him.

My brother couldn’t stand to be around them and their egotistical ways. My father couldn’t deal with the problems and just gave up and walked back into his room and his games and gave up all other goals or dreams and letting my sister run the show for the most part.

Dealing with her passing is like banging ahead in the well, like my father, her ex-husband, after a 20-year marriage. My sister is in charge of the funeral and her paperwork. She has already botched it enough times the extended family had to call her out. It has been disappointing, but I plan to focus on my goals and hope the family can clear their shit out.

Behind The Clock

No, I did not forget, just was working on a lot of stuff.

What kind of stuff?

Well, got a digital scale again so now I can start costing things out and this will get me to figure out my price points. Also, got my old laptop powered up and got my old bath salt formulas for the sake of maybe selling it later, all natural, pleasing and unique scents, but that is for later. We are working on the foodstuffs and currently roasting off the onion and garlic to see what it grinds down to, taking down some info and going over some of what I had from my old laptop.

That is about 15 gb of data to go through getting what I can from it. That is a lot of work.

Also found older formulas for other products flavor mixes, and whatnot so that is always a nice little thing to hold on too. I know this is way late, but I have also had a lot of health issues including a set of tmj spasms that feel like someone is bolting my tendons to my skull.

Still it is nice to have that extra laptop and charger in the closet just in case I need it. Other things are just getting some data and beginning to see where my numbers are which would have been a lot easier if it were for my health. I cant complain though, I am doing what I can to get better health and I knew this had a chance of happening so all I can do is continue to soldier on.

Sorry, this took a while to get down but I do hope you join me as I try to make it even further because right now with how things going seeing some positive front and center is something we can all use.

Stay strong.

Relaxing when Onions get Expensive

I got to put my hair down, so to speak, and go see a concert, a concert whose tickets I had been holding since before the pandemic. Joy. The show still had a VIP meetup but did not tell me about it because I didn’t buy it in July or September. I held on to my tickets from 2020.

Thanks, Moda Center; nothing makes me feel like I know what I am doing, like getting your people on phone calls and getting “I don’t know for 30 minutes” and no effort to help out. Makes me feel like a real wunderkind when the guy with half a properly working nervous system can do better.

Do I sound angry? Really I am not. Lindsay Stirling had a great concert, and I was close enough that the bass gave me a free back massage through my ribcage for missing the VIP meetup earlier.

Roommate couldn’t get her paperwork, so I invited a past co-worker who I knew liked it. All the while, I couldn’t shake the idea that I should be trying to look at different formulas for flavor profiles or work on my project and being in a group of people like that.

Well, to say out of place would be an understatement.

Moda center needs better food, though. Seating-wise, the front area near the stage was sold out. However, it was not a complete sell-out which is sad; Lindsay Stirling is a bright, bubbly person that is almost so saccharine sweet that every jaded one will feel their own hearts growing a size by the end of the show. It shows honestly, though, and I would suggest it if you like her music.

Doing other things when I could be working on my projects makes me fidgety, it makes my breath hitch a little more, and I get a little more skittish when I need to stand still.

Started building the price book and a couple new formulas I want to try that I think will be proper hits. One stumbling block has been my roommate, who was borrowing my digital scale, has lost it, so I will need to replace it to get more accurate numbers on use and volume. Overall though, it was a good experience. It made me think of more than just what but the why with some exciting introspection.

Costs are still going up, but luckily I can make things in a way that doesn’t kill the price, I feel. I still need to math it out to find out what my cost is and how to get the best profit from it.

Always some to do, but progress can be found even in lighter weeks. Hope things are going well for you.

Stay Strong.