Losing Patience

DING DING DING WE HAVE A WINNER!

Visual aids today. Now, I will answer this as simply as I can. Danielle James, I hope this helps.

Why is Portland Antifa rioting about and why?

You started it. You lit the fire. I have written post after post about the good of what BLM could be and differing opinions and tried to figure this way and that and worked to get people to see it my way and I have post after post after post after post so this time I will be very clear. I had hope not because I am black but I saw the concept as something that could be good for all people to bring more culture and more community in and all it did was burn it to the ground, crack the windows and do nothing to help the city.

The subject of race is a poisoned well, the statement of differences is getting there and BLM worked with Antifa because it was all to do with their plan. Look at the city and tell me one thing, one single thing that got better because of you all. Violence has gone up, police response down, no one wants to open a business and everyone is making tracks out turning the city I loved and still do and watch turn to waste by people who have shouted about literally everything to the point where it is all white noise.

To those who say they didn’t do anything ask yourselves if you can find a single thing positive in my city because right now more people have died, and been shot less police want to help and money is getting stretched because we have a leader of the country with the capabilities of a baked potato and one side is trying to defend him because he is on their team. Take all of this ‘my team versus theirs’ horse shit, cram it up your ass, and go make sure you light it on fire first. Both sides of the major political parties and many of the minor ones have good points to be made if they can sit and talk, but no one wants to do that because that means your team is not strong and your team has to be strong right?

I am flat out of patience. I am not the only one. Every time those riots occur now BLM has been with it for so long they are signed to it as well. The only thing this has done is make your points that much smaller because no one wants to listen to those destroying their livelihood, and that does not take a bachelors in economics to find out. I used to have hope for the concept, but that has been long lost, and the fact that people are just now beginning to see what I said may happen in 2015 and 16 makes me sick to my stomach. So who is at fault for Portland failing. You, BLM and Antifa and all the little groups that back them but aren’t the same because different names, you should all laugh it up because you made the city you tried to supposedly champion into a joke and unfortunately the punchline stinks.

Here is some blasts from the past in all my crappy editing to prove it.

‘Nothing gets to me than the idiocy of a large group of very dimwitted people. Seriously, I understand learning disabilities I was told to have a couple, but I am shocked at the sheer duncery of a group of people who have told me to check my privilege.

So I did. These people who do not like ideas or opinions or even conversation that takes a half watt of brainpower to understand make me go back to being a problem solver, because by god the market needs one again. I once had a nice conversation with someone from the BLM group and while I do not agree with the group 100% there are things that could be good if they focused more on them. Back to the point I had a talk with someone who had a nice conversation as we went over our points to and fro in a respectful matter about things the group would have to do to become more of a mainstay and less of an extremist group. -2017

‘White privilege, does it exist ? Yes.

Black privilege, does it exist? Yes.

Male privilege? Yes.

Female privilege? Yes.

Every group of people has a set of strengths and weaknesses; privileges and problems and that’s just going to happen until people on the whole get to be a lot nicer to each other.

Every subsection of people has sets of advantages and disadvantages that over the grand scheme I would say is closer to even then most people would hate to think. Should everyone be based and judged on person by person basis. In a perfect world then yes, but I do not know when I woke up and it was perfect. The emotion is a good start though because at least that shows investment of people to try and change things. Now, if it could be focused properly most of the problems in this country could be finished in just under a week.’ 2015

‘Blm, Antifa and the Proud Boys are groups with exactly that, both sides have actual problems and both have insults flung at them from the other just for the sake of emotional prizes and it just does not work.

Be mad, sure, think the world hates you? Most times it just doesn’t care, but if you can focus it on positives then make it work. For that to be achieved it is something that needs to work for all sides. Of the conflict. Focus your anger at the trappings of the cycle rather then those who execute and you will find your capabilities much more warmly received.’ 2020

All of these posts go back more then five years when I thought this would be a problem but if we could just talk we could avoid it.

‘There is a need that only the police can handle. We have cut back police response in Portland and we are at the lowest sized force in 23 years. Considering how gun violence has gone up and continues to go up it means we have some major problems that need to be worked out and the police are going to have to help with that because currently our Mayor is using private security and that as damning of his work as all the city commissioners, and it should because has previously noted they have failed.

How do we fix it though is the question and to do so would take a multi faceted plan to answer questions where people have an issue. First, it is to help the officers, in Portland it takes 2 years to be a full officer, and in it I would add also some study in law. I would try to restructure the training so we aren’t losing so much as upgrading in different areas and I feel a little bit of time learning the law will give them a little confidence to further add some capabilities explaining how things are in the laws they defend.

Another thing is that we need to take a look at what counts as the over bearing hard left trying not to hurt anybody’s feelings instead of solving problems style of politics needs to end. It is not working and after close to six years for Mayor Ted Wheeler and the four for Commissioner Hardesty. There is very little to show for the hundreds of thousands of dollars their paychecks have given.

Kowtowing to political groups for clout was a disgusting move as it painted the city in a corner and one it will take years to get of. Some who sympathize or claim they are a different group then antifa despite wearing the same colors, using the same tactics, and fighting the supposed same enemies is a lark.’ 2021

Black lives do not matter.

Black lives do not matter because one group of people cannot have their lives try to matter more then anyone else’s. To have people chanting it, making it a hashtag, blowing up social media with it makes me a little depressed for the sake of our culture. Personally I can’t care less about what skin tone someone has on whatever particular day, because it is not something that really is important. Their culture is important, their background, context, political views, loves, hates, targets of affection and disdain are all important while skin tone simply is not. Unless you are trying to dress up to the best of your own aesthetic creating ability and aesthetic calculation aside color does not make something matter any more or less in my eyes, and for the eyes of many others.

Now, before someone goes down some fairly used set of responses pertaining to their own tragedy let me tell you something about myself, just so you understand who I am. I have tragedy befall me as so many others have had, and some would say even more so. I have had to cry myself asleep in junior high while someone close to me was raped and murdered. I have had to stop friends from murdering their entire family, bled buckets for people who thought that no one would defend them, cried for all the times the pain was too much, when one parent went to jail and once while the other was on the floor turning blue due to the effects of a stroke. I have seen people I have had so much hope for fall to the bottom, and I even tried to take my own life once to a painkiller cocktail that no one would take on accident and couldn’t sink under the rim of a large martini glass. I have seen so much idiocy in this world that it makes my skin crawl and my head ache. Every day because of all the fights I got in just to keep my sanity had some pain in it. Some days waking up is so much a challenge that I wish for some long reprieve.

There was no group for them or hashtag for us nor was their a group saying how they were a group whose lives mattered while seemingly forgetting the rest because creating such a thing would be disrespectful. The latina girl who knew I did my best as her friend, the black friend who was ostracized because he just liked acting like a hip hop styled gangster, the marine who came from the kid that tried bullying me in my youth, the christian who just wanted to feel respected by his parents. Their lives were not encapsulated in some news bit story or made light by a sixteen letter slogan. Hearing what kind of lives matter is such a foreign concept to me because it is so simple. It is like looking up and seeing the answer boldly written on the wall in marker. so simple that the questioning of it makes me wonder if we are becoming some side step on Mr. Darwin’s theory. We all have had to deal with horrible things, and some more then others. If you want me to think that those raped and murdered are not worth it, that those dying of hunger are not worth it, or even those who worked so hard to make the world better and died horribly are not worth it, but your little group of people does then please be prepared to either punch me or shut the hell up because you could not be any further from the point if you tried.

Black lives do not matter nor do white, nor yellow or red, blue or green or any shade on our spectrum.

We all matter because we all are the same when we start as a blank slate. We create the definitions of our world, and we grow within them. So how about we drop what we can say about who matters and who doesn’t, and start showing it through who you are. Make the world a canvas for all of the actions colored by who we are completely, and not what we just so happen to be on that day. A world colored so vivaciously that fantasy could become reality. That would be the world we all would be happy of.

2015

‘Now, though I must say I am more than a little hurt because what started off as a branded “resistance” brought the wrong people to the dance. The crown is tarnished, and the jewel that once held some magic may have grown duller. That does not mean that efforts should stop, though. One does not get by moping about, and even though it has wavered, I will still make my home a better place, and then move outwards because that is the plan, the goal , and the dream. It does not matter now, who won or who lost. We must work with what we got and sometimes it takes a group of misfits to make something greater than the sum of the parts. ‘ 2016 About the Portland resistance.

Danielle Davis, you, Antifa, BLM and all your little same but not quite groups, did it. Take a bow, you did were the main force behind Portland turning into a shit hole, now when the city is failing get all your friends to look in a mirror.

Finally, to those reading it who may think they are the change in society. Tim Pool made a wonderful bit of music.

You see that statue that keeps spinning? Just the same old things given a new coat of paint. So what happens when the wheel turns against you, because it will eventually. Time after all is undefeated.

Stay strong

Feeling Nothing but Hate

Let me tell you a small story, a long time ago, a young boy was abused by his family, he had been beaten daily, past discipline, his joints were twisted, his being concussed multiple times and due to his size when he begun going to school other kids had tried to further the damage. Making an example in his first able time to defend himself he broke a classmate’s wrist who tried to put him facedown in the bark.

Years passed and the fights continued, being part of a town going through a drug boom facilitated the ease of fighting and a police department so dirty and hands off had only made one needed to brawl at times.

He was known for brutality in fights and was willing to injure himself and others to make a point. Things had happened he lost people in horrible ways and it stung him deeply. After the last funeral he went to he thought the world was against him. That is the point we are talking about because a lot of people may be feeling this in their lowest, that their world that they inhabit actively hate them and that those who do not agree with them are the enemy.

From that story let me give this piece of advice of anyone with that exact mindset thinking the world can be reforged if enough anger is cast at it blindly. It won’t. You will hurt your own cause enough that you will be deemed a failure and a fool in relation to it. Anyone on the basis of that cause will look at you and deem you unfit to even be made knowledgeable of any coming changes in your direction, and some will take the hatred you have garnered from your own actions or lack there of and deem you the problem.

Blm, Antifa and the Proud Boys are groups with exactly that, both sides have actual problems and both have insults flung at them from the other just for the sake of emotional prizes and it just does not work.

Be mad, sure, think the world hates you? Most times it just doesn’t care, but if you can focus it on positives then make it work. For that to be achieved it is something that needs to work for all sides. Of the conflict. Focus your anger at the trappings of the cycle rather then those who execute and you will find your capabilities much more warmly received.

Alright enough of the Dr. Phil talk.

Stay Strong.

Stupid People Stay Away

There are some days I would just like to enjoy the time and maybe get something done on a project. Work on editing, draw some things for the card game, hope the world can be a better more accepting place, and maybe hope for the future.

Nothing gets to me than the idiocy of a large group of very dimwitted people. Seriously, I understand learning disabilities I was told to have a couple, but I am shocked at the sheer duncery of a group of people who have told me to check my privilege.

So I did. These people who do not like ideas or opinions or even conversation that takes a half watt of brainpower to understand make me go back to being a problem solver, because by god the market needs one again. I once had a nice conversation with someone from the BLM group and while I do not agree with the group 100% there are things that could be good if they focused more on them. Back to the point I had a talk with someone who had a nice conversation as we went over our points to and fro in a respectful matter about things the group would have to do to become more of a mainstay and less of an extremist group.

Now some people may find it strange but people can actually get together to have a conversation despite having different opinions. It may seem strange, but do not worry because one day when your minds evolve you may find it needed for people of different pasts to work together for something like maybe a cure for cancer, a stable housing market, healing after a major world disaster or war.

Then we get people who believe that all white people need to bow to all black people because of something that happened more then a hundred years ago with a small viewpoint blown out of proportion until enough people are rattling it off looking like phone controlled twitter zombies and it makes me want to headbutt people with a longhorn skull.

Like someone who wanted reparations for every slave in America not thinking that also included child labor, the Irish, Jewish, Chinese and the Germans at various points in time. This person who was in another BLM branch then wanted to change their goals because they are not about helping people, no, this particular branch close to my own neck of the woods thought it should be all about Black lives, but they are not racist because white people are the majority in this country and through something missing the entire meaning in English deem that anything against the majority race of a country cannot be deemed a hate crime.

This logic dictates that I can go somewhere with another race as the majority and start the White Lives Matter movement? Cheer how some brainless dolts with the same amount of melanin as me do crimes that bring people’s eyes to our cause right should make me pleased, right? It doesn’t and anyone who thinks that it should get their head sweetly held by a pair of blue whales until it’s flatter than Justin Bieber’s talent pool. I actually feel for the people who look at these knuckleheads and just want to say they are from another group of lifeforms just to spare the associations with whatever group of pinheads may be vying for the right to represent a whole group of melanin levels.

So about that checking my privilege test backed by the group. I got 12, my sister got 14 and my father got 24. According to a test where if you are white or male counts for a couple to only get such scores made the test tell us we shouldn’t need to tell the world is unfair but surprise it seems we are part of the few that know it. Take this whole instigating race war hypocrisy horseshit and just shove all of it, piece by piece where it belongs which would be in a toilet while those left actually look to see if there is a problem before attempting to fix it because either way a united front will bring with it a united solution.

Opinion about privilege

According to an online study with a thousand different people this is how this post will be recieved.

So with that let’s talk about white privilege. Let us talk about male privilege. Let us talk about even playing fields and uneven ones. First, if you are using emotions to back up your opinion, and cannot understand how any counterpoints can even exist then congratulations this will be a very painful post so just go away, and actually no just let me put this here for you. If you will not like to hear anything that may hurt your sensibilities then I have at least placed a picture of a baby hippo here. If you can be mad after looking at this then you need to go and decompress before returning back to society because you have no heart.(Joke)

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Stow the happiness though because there are somethings I need to share with ya’ll because some thing aint adding up to anything.

White privilege, does it exist ? Yes.

Black privilege, does it exist? Yes.

Male privilege? Yes.

Female privilege? Yes.

Every group of people has a set of strengths and weaknesses; privileges and problems and that’s just going to happen until people on the whole get to be a lot nicer to each other.

Every subsection of people has sets of advantages and disadvantages that over the grand scheme I would say is closer to even then most people would hate to think. Should everyone be based and judged on person by person basis. In a perfect world then yes, but I do not know when I woke up and it was perfect. The emotion is a good start though because at least that shows investment of people to try and change things. Now, if it could be focused properly most of the problems in this country could be finished in just under a week.

Now, when we talk about such privileges something that is missing is a little context. So, to help show what I am speaking from I am going to give you just the cliff notes so you understand.

I came from a household that was severly abusive in a town known for drugs and gang issues to the point that police would not show up at all despite being a couple miles away. If you were not of latin background then you were in the minority in the school system. Had a lot of social issues, physical issues, mental issues growing up. Loved ones died because of petty arguments and I have been called everything under the sun from a catholic child rapist (Many of the people in the town were raised protestant) to a terrorist to a dyke, fag, cracker. My girlfriend once died because she dated me because she was of latin descent and I was not as well as her raising protestant and mine as more catholic.

I can count most of my true friends on my fingers, and I don’t like asking for help on a whole lot. I have been fired from jobs because hiring someone else would bring them better tax breaks and even had jobs taken away from me that I wanted to work because I was not of a certain race. Girls would not date me because I was not in the same or higher tax bracket.

So a lot of the problems that a lot of people have I have seen as well, not all, but enough to at least make this post.

Life is unfair. Sad fact.

Males get paid more in some even the majority of professions, but not all. Being female also allows a slew of tactics to make one’s way up the ladder that guys don’t get to practice to often. Scholarships and grants for women do not exist for just men, at least I didn’t find one in four years of searching. If you find one then please comment with it.

There are no tax breaks for hiring those who identify as white. When companies are trying to save every penny the workforce is going to be a group of people that gets the most bang for their buck in those returns. Colleges are in the same boat many of which will have race on the table if it is worried about the bottom line. Some scholarship funds are give implicitly on race and gender as qualifying factors yet thy exist in the hundreds and thousands.

I have never been to a white lives rally without being termed a racist. In many cases even speaking about the races with a lower melanin content deems you as automatically wrong when if you had more melanin in your skin then it would be a more socialy agreeable action.

 

If people really want to make it an even playing field then they have to give up the things that provide them advantages over others and let merit of one’s work and personality define the person. No race specific grants. No gender specific grants. No tax breaks for hiring those of different skin colors or creeds. No race or gender specific scholarships. No award for nepotism or cliques in the workplace. Companies held to a scientifically quantifiable set of statistics when talking about pay and benefits per person, and if they are skewing the numbers then they must fix it. If I could toss my pluses for an even table for all then ya I will toss those cards like a 7 -2 off suit( poker term: Worst starting hand in texas hold’em)

I don’t really care though how far things are going supposedly because I have learned how to socialize more and I know talk to people regularly now then ever before. My facebook has people from more then a dozen different countries on four continents that I chat with regularly, and that’s pretty cool to me.

Oh and if you are student of a different race and you are looking for scholarships or grants and havent had a whole lot of luck well…

http://scholarships.fastweb.com/r-african-american-students

https://www.scholarships.com/financial-aid/college-scholarships/scholarships-by-type/minority-scholarships/african-american-scholarships/

http://scholarships.fastweb.com/r-asian-or-pacific-islander-students

https://www.scholarships.com/financial-aid/college-scholarships/scholarships-by-type/minority-scholarships/american-indian-native-american-scholarships/

http://scholarships.fastweb.com/r-hispanic-students

https://www.scholarships.com/financial-aid/college-scholarships/scholarships-by-type/minority-scholarships/hispanic-scholarships/

https://www.scholarships.com/financial-aid/college-scholarships/scholarships-by-type/womens-college-scholarships-grants-and-fellowships/

Shabooski. Obviously these are not going to change for along while so people may should take advantage while they can, and just be aware that for the table to be truly even in something then everyone will need to sacrifice something for it.

With me the only thing you will be gauged one is if your an ass who will not learn or grow and make others grow around them. Red, blue, black, white, yellow, male, female, trans, furry, godlike, bottom tier, earthling, martian, royalty, or the homeless. If I got some beef and bell peppers going on then you can get a plate at my place. If you are vegan then I will just cook some bell peppers and onions with rice for ya. I will make the world a better place for us all.