Feeling Nothing but Hate

Let me tell you a small story, a long time ago, a young boy was abused by his family, he had been beaten daily, past discipline, his joints were twisted, his being concussed multiple times and due to his size when he begun going to school other kids had tried to further the damage. Making an example in his first able time to defend himself he broke a classmate’s wrist who tried to put him facedown in the bark.

Years passed and the fights continued, being part of a town going through a drug boom facilitated the ease of fighting and a police department so dirty and hands off had only made one needed to brawl at times.

He was known for brutality in fights and was willing to injure himself and others to make a point. Things had happened he lost people in horrible ways and it stung him deeply. After the last funeral he went to he thought the world was against him. That is the point we are talking about because a lot of people may be feeling this in their lowest, that their world that they inhabit actively hate them and that those who do not agree with them are the enemy.

From that story let me give this piece of advice of anyone with that exact mindset thinking the world can be reforged if enough anger is cast at it blindly. It won’t. You will hurt your own cause enough that you will be deemed a failure and a fool in relation to it. Anyone on the basis of that cause will look at you and deem you unfit to even be made knowledgeable of any coming changes in your direction, and some will take the hatred you have garnered from your own actions or lack there of and deem you the problem.

Blm, Antifa and the Proud Boys are groups with exactly that, both sides have actual problems and both have insults flung at them from the other just for the sake of emotional prizes and it just does not work.

Be mad, sure, think the world hates you? Most times it just doesn’t care, but if you can focus it on positives then make it work. For that to be achieved it is something that needs to work for all sides. Of the conflict. Focus your anger at the trappings of the cycle rather then those who execute and you will find your capabilities much more warmly received.

Alright enough of the Dr. Phil talk.

Stay Strong.

Time To Switch It Up

I wanted Shattered Reflection to reach 65,000 word wise. It would be on the lower end of things and I can put in enough stories that a good number of people would find interesting. I had pushed hard to make it to 50,000 enough for about 77 pages which is pretty hard to do considering everything, but that was okay. Doing it had done a lot to look back learning little bits about myself.

Fighting under street lights, being shot at multiple times, betrayals and few true good friends. Everything that had been powered through in my life made a lot of interesting stories doing things that some people may not have had experience doing. I was a backyard wrestler, a problem solver, a doodler, cook, and an all around smart ass. Call it the passing of genetic talent when it comes to that last one because if there was anything my family had in the vein of born talent. Back to the point at hand though all the stuff to this point made me realize somethings.

Normally, I do not want to be really cocky for the most part, or I will turn in to a persona that is cocky to comedic effect. Looking back at everything in the format of a book made me really gain some perspective on some things. For all the work I did burn myself out on it so taking a moment away will do some good while I work on some other writing projects.

There is a short story I have been meaning to type up just on the thought of prom experiences. I never had any great ones, but I also am a fan of the sweet romances. Think like Kakashi from Naruto except even more saccharine romance being read.

Also, I have something going on where I may get a camera for the two food books that need them. Finally getting that portion done will make me happy, as it has been on the docket for quite a while. Getting those projects closer to completion would make me a happy person.